Godsprayerwarrior

Passion

2009-02-21T17:09:00.002-06:00

My passion runs deep for you
an unquenchable hunger and thirst for more
to be wrapped in your jealous love is what i seek
take me away to your secret place of abounding love
where your voice whispers songs of desire of your love
melt my heart with yours , envelope me with you
dance with me the dance of forever ,where our dance never ends
My LOVE, my Lord ,my passion is for you .

UNWRITTEN DESTINY

2008-10-06T12:36:00.004-05:00

My life is a mystery,Destiny unknown
The Author of my future has the pen in his hand
writing words of new beginnings and open endings not known
I want to roam free in the boundless meadows of his creation
with no fears ,with no restraints just endless possibilities .
Dancing free near waterfalls and clear waters,taking in the fragrant breezes
of the many colors that fill my sight. He sets my spirit free ,free to fly high against the skies that are full of his artistic paintings of rich vibrant colors.YES
The author writes a story , the story of my life with endless words , a story with no end ,Anything is possible with the pen in HIS HAND

2008-08-11T22:43:00.002-05:00

wrapped in a cocoon she felt trapped ,struggling to be set free ,not understanding the reason for the entrapment, she felt lonely ,isolated ,confined ,she struggled with the emotions welling up inside her ,crying out wanting someone ,anyone to set her free... no one came. she heard voices .telling her to wait , its not time , stop struggling and just rest. she didn't want to wait ..she wanted to be free and be with others. but no one beckoned to her call. no one came near to rip open the thing holding her so tight .. she gave up ,didn't have Any fight left in her ,she didn't care .. the emotions were gone ,the very place of her confinement became her safe place ,a hiding place to be safe from those whom she felt didn't care ... she slept .. for a long time... when she awoke she felt a little different .. not so tight .. she moved her leg .. ahh what is this ... my leg is free she move some more ohhh yess both legs free ... again through a little hole in the bottom she squeezed and waited then squeezed through and waited over and over again ...each time she felt a sensation going through her body .. something pumping through her that gave her strength,on and on she squeezed trough the opening till finely the last pull of her body her head popped out ... she looked at her body and cried ... what is this what happened to me I'm am dying I'm all shriveld and icky ... then a voice told her to stretch really hard ... as she did this the pulsating sensation came stronger and then with a mighty burst she felt stronger than she ever has in her life she looked at herself again with amazement ... oh my ... look at me .. the voice told her to flap her wings and to fly ... fly? but i cant d that ... ...the voice said yes you can ... fly so the butterfly moved her wings up and down as hard as she could and closed her eyes .. for the first time in her life she felt totally free ...weightless , as she sored through the air ... she said to the voice look at me I'm am doing it i can do it ... she looked up and saw the most magnificent sight ... a man with his hands outstretched and his loving eyes watching her ... she went closer to him .. sat on his lap and he held her so tight ... he told he that he was proud ... she looked at him and smiled and said its you your the voice ... he said yes i am... she ask him why she was in that tight lonely place why didn't you set me free when i cried and struggling why why why ... he said my beautiful butterfly remember how you were before .. small. weak and all you did was crawl ... you had to be in that place so that i would work and transform you into something bigger ,stronger and give you wings so that you could fly high above your enemies ... the reasons that you has to squeeze through that little tiny hole was to pump my blood and strength though you a little at a time so that you body could handle it .. it was there in that cocoon that i also transformed you and made you learn how to wait and trust me ..now you can rise up and fly far above these things that held you down ... she smiled and told him thank you and that she loved him so much.. she looked out into the distance and saw other butterfly's watching and waiting for them ... she ask the man who are they? they are your friends the ones you cried out to ... you see they couldn't save you they couldn't set you free because the knew that you had to go through this ... she looked but sir ... i don't know them ... yes , you do .he said ... look closely she looked and yes she recognised them they were her friends ..she realised that they went through the same thing and that's why they couldn't help her only tried to encourage her and talk her through the difficult times ... the man told her ..now go my butterfly you have a new purpose to go from place to place sharing what you eat pollinating the world with my beauty... go and share!

I WILL NOT BE MOVED!

2008-06-20T17:52:00.002-05:00

ON CHRIST THE SOLID ROCK I STAND ALL OTHE GROUND IS SINKING SAND

Well . lets just say that the past two days were my testing days! , yesterday my only phone (my cell) started going wacky, i couldnt sleep until it was like 4 am.. then today i woke up late, then mydebit card woulnt let me pay a bill, then whene i tried to withdraw my money from an atm it wouldnt let me ,( i went to my car and said to the enemy ok ...you cannot have my joy, you cannot have my money ,you cannot, ) so i tried calling the customer service the had me on hold for 20 min , so i hung up waited awhile then tried calling back ...my phone decieds to go wacky on me again for about an hour i finally got my phone to dial.. the person said that everything was ok with my acount so maybey my card was damaged (i just got a new card in dec) and that they could send me a new one which itll take a week or so ( i need my money now ,i have no food , or tolit paper or stuff i need ) they suggested to try the card again and call back if i do need another card .(PLEASE pray and stand in agreement that it WILL WORK!!) then about an hour later i found out that the boil order for our city was lifted so i turned on all the faucets both tubs to flush the water forgetting that my bathroom sink drains slow ...go in 10 min later to find my bathroom floor under water ! at first i got mad then about a minute then i said .... NO I WILL NOT BE MOVED ... I WILL NOT BE MAD ! , THE ENEMY WILL NOT WIN ... HE WILL NOT STEAL MY JOY .... i started to sing and to praise him ... HE IS MY GOD... HE IS FAITHFUL ... I WILL PRAISE HIM IN THE STROM ... I WILL PRAISE HIM WHEN MY DAY IS BAD !!! I WILL NOT BE MOVED ... MY FEET ARE ROOTED ON THE ROCK >>> JESUS CHRIST MY LORD!

A STRIRRING!

2008-05-16T11:04:00.000-05:00

After reading my friend Deborah's and my Pastors bogs God is stirring something within my spirit. Im'm just awestruke at Gods Holiness and His Majesty. Its the cry of my spirit to see freedom come to all , to those who know Him to be set free from the bondages that hold them from being all he created them to be... and for freedom to those who dont know HIM to be set free from the chains of sin and the blinders(&lies) that keep them from seeing and seeking him. TOTAL FREEDOM ... i have been crying out for the church to have an upper room experiance ... to see such an outpouring of Gods Glory and Holiness... for the HOLY FIRE of God to FALL!! upon HIS people .. to just saturate us with hIS presance so that it will soak all who we see all that are near us! ... to see such an outporing of GODS presance that even those who deny him will fall on thier face and cry out to Him and call on Him ... I belive that this WILL happen soon ... i feel it ...i know it ... stir it up LORD ...pour it out LORD ... let your rain fall .. not just a trickle Lord but a MIGHTY flood!... let your wind blow Lord , not just a breeze ,but a MIGHTY wind... let you fire fall Lord , not just a spark, but a BLAZING FIRE!!!!!!! .... yes Lord ..YES!!!

A WORD FROM THE FATHER

2008-05-16T10:41:00.002-05:00

My Love ,my Bride

listen to my spirit within you , do you hear the Father? do you hear my voice?. What I desire for you is to go into my chambers and be with me and seek me with all your being.I desire for my bride to spend time with me. For in the quiet place is where you will hear my voice clearly. Now is the time to completely give yourselves to me. now is the time to listen inventively to my voice. It is there in the place of total intimacy with me that I will give you direction,will you come and receive?. Will you be obedient to the words I speak? This is the day , this is the hour , in which you need to be completely mine. no more will I allow those who call themselves mine to to serve two masters , either your completely mine ,or your not. completely surrender your whole selves to me,No more here and there, NO MORE. Total obedience ,totally mine for I am a jealous God. it all or nothing. i want you , I desire you. ........ There is so much I want you to know ,so much i want to say,will you hear me? will you know me? will you seek me ? will you go?will you be completely mine ? will you be spotless before me? ....... be completely MINE!

THE WAR ZONE

2008-03-31T01:41:00.002-05:00

Picture if you will a soldier in a war .. everything at the time is peaceful (so it seemed) he is wrapped up in his blanket hidden away in his shelter ,just happy to know that the fighting in the war has ceased for the moment.. ahhh sweet relief.. rest and peace.. little did he know that the enemy in the background was planning a sneak attack.. all the sudden the soldier hears a sound in the distance sounding like someone breaking a stick with their foot.. the soldier prays for protection ..sings a song that his commanding officer sung to him .. he hears a sound again this time the sound is closer and louder.. then yet again this time its right outside his door, all of sudden the door crashes down and the stand the enemy .. he is clearly there for one purpose to destroy the soldier ..to kill him.. the enemy leaps and strikes with all his might .. using every weapon he has to destroy .. kicking , punching, striking him with all his power.. the soldier tries to fight back with the battle gear he has and can reach but the enemy takes his weapons and uses them against the owner.. the soldier screams out to his commanding officer and to his friends for help ..but no help comes ... the enemy closes in and with one final blow the soldier falls in defeat.. the enemy stands over him and crouches down till his face is inches from the soldiers .. with his stench of evil filling the air tell the soldier .. look at you .. what a mighty soldier you are .. ha .. you are nothing .. you are weak .. look at you you think you can beat me ..do you really think you can win .. you sad excuse for a soldier.. your commanding officer sure did a poor job of training you .. he must be so proud.. (lets out a evil laugh) what a mighty soldier ...the soldier looking to the ground crying and believing every word that the enemy says .. crys out again for help .. the enemy says to him .. yes where is your help hmm where are they/ no one will come no one is there look do you see ...no one... the suddenly the soldier feels a surge of energy go through him then all the sudden like a bolt of lighting power goes through him bringing him to his feet knocking the enemy off of him .. then the soldier gets in the enemy's face as close as he can get looks deep into the eyes and says .. i win .. the with a mighty swing knocks the enemy to the ground repeating the words his commanding officer gave to him to speak in the time of intense battle ... the words plunging into the enemy like a mighty sword over and over .. striking him as he sneers with pain.. the enemy without a word gains enough strength runs and flees ... the soldier tattered and weak falls to his knees with his head in his hands crys .. then through his fingers he sees a vivid light surrounding him.. he looks up and there stands his commanding officer .. the soldier said .. where where you i called for you ..for your help and you did not come to help... the commanding officer said .. i did come i was standing over here the whole time giving you the weapons you needed .. and look over in the distance you see your friends also ..they were doing battle over you with their prayers .. the soldier falls into the commanding officers arms weeping ................................

This story was inspired by recent events of my life in the past week... i was going to write something totally different but God took over and gave me each word to say... .. this actually the past 4 days has been a war zone in my house .. nothing like i have ever experienced it has been total chaos... ..satan was trying to tear my family apart .. my home was a battle zone .. continuous fighting ..literally.. yelling ,screaming ..downright violent.. i want to just retreat and give up ..run away.. go in a hole and stay there ... I prayed .while this was going on and ask Jesus to help ..to bring peace and it got worse .. i kept asking myself and Jesus why wont you help me in the heat of the battle? isn't that what you said you would do? why wont you help me ?? i don't understand? I'm trying so hard .. but failing so much. i just want my family back.... i called out to him and to my friends but no one seemed to care or to be there .. i was believing the enemy... then God gave me a vision about all this .. i seen satan in the middle of mt living room waving his hand ..each time he did that .. everyone got worse and it escalated ..a war zone ... then he said your friends are praying .. and I AM HERE.... then i thought of his word ... its like a mighty sword .. I will use this might weapon next time ..... I WILL NOT let the enemy defeat me ... I WILL NOT give up or give in.... i WILL NOT believe the lies ... I WILL continue to use my hands and flags (standards)to do prophetic worship and warfare for my KING ... I WILL let God use my lips to be used as a prophetic mouthpiece to speak HIS word to people places and circumstances.. i WILL continue to be His intercessor to intercede and pray and to declare... I WILL tell about JESUS and his love and about what he has done to save us !... I WILL BE HIS SOLDIER ...HIS WARRIOR FOREVER!!!

Fitly Joined Together

2008-02-11T07:52:00.000-06:00

A Body That Is Fitly Joined Together
Bishop Keith Butler

From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love. Ephesians 4:16
Do you understand the power of unity? There is nothing that can happen to the body of Christ when we come together and march forward as one. Together our strength will destroy the works of the enemy against us.
But the work of the Church can only be carried out when the whole Body is fitly joined together, compacted, and pressed together so that every joint will be effective.
As a Body, to be joined together means to literally lock our arms together, producing a link chain that is tight and strong. And while we are fitly joined together, we are operating in the love of God and there are no gaps for the enemy to get in. He cannot divide us nor can he stop us.
Now you may be saying, does it take all that. I mean, we are all Christians, and we all love God. Yeah okay, but if we do not operate in unity, then there are gaps and the enemy can divide us. Gaps allow the enemy to come through us, behind us, and between us. He can attack us, break us, and bring division among us even though we love God.
That's why we have to be fitly joined together. Another benefit of being compacted and pressed together is that every joint can supply and be effective in doing the work of the ministry. This is how the whole body increases, prospers, have more, and do better. This is also why we need each other.
It's so important for us to understand why we should receive the whole Body even despite our differences. We all have quirks and some idiosyncratic ways. I mean, if you look hard enough, you will find some faults in me and if I look hard enough I will find some faults in you.
However, it still does not change the fact that God designed this thing for us to walk as one Body. Besides love covers a multitude of faults, so we have to look past that person's faults and see the person.
That's why God gave us love. Love can look past all of the person's faults and still see the good in them. God is love. You see, we cannot have increase without love. So let us walk in unity with the whole body in order to receive all the fullness of God.
Scripture References: Ephesians 4:11-16; Psalm 133:1-3

WE NEED EACH OTHER

2008-02-02T14:31:00.000-06:00

Lately everywhere i turn there is something about offence and gossip and tareing down of people . What is sad is most of it is among the children of God. Today i went in prayer about this
it is tareing me up and greiving me so that we as the body of christ ,as brothers and sisters of God , are destorying each other . Is this how we are to behave? , is this what Jesus wants us to do? NO ITS NOT. we are to LIFT each other up(even if one falls) we are to PRAY for ,encourage , be there for, and SHOW each other the love of Jesus! . We are NOT to leave people out ,gossip ,tare down,or divide!. Right now it is so important for body of christ(THE CHURCH!) to be UNIFIED! the times are getting hard and if one is left out the enemy has access to destroy them thats why we NEED each other to cover each other in prayer to protect each other so that its harder for the enemy to take one out! WE NEED TO BE IN UNITY!. I PRAY IN THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS THAT DISCORD, GOSSIP, REJECTION, SEPERATION&HATE HAS TO GO IN THE NAME OF JESUS . I PRAY THAT LOVE , KINDNESS ,UNITY,ENCOURAGEMENT,AND ALL THE FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT BE IN THIER PLACE!! IN JESUS NAME! ..... people , we NEED each other ,please dont leave anyone feeling alone ,talked about,less than,rejected. WE NEED EACH OTHER!!!!

YOU ARE

2008-01-26T19:45:00.000-06:00

I get excited when someone speaks your name

You are the excitement of my hearing

My heart leaps when you enter my thoughts

You are the joy of my thinking

My lips sing you a new praise everyday

You are the song of my praise

I dance to the music of your song

You are the rhythm that moves my feet

You are these things and more my love, my Lord

There is nothing that can compare to the love my heart feels for you

My Lord I long to be enveloped by your very presence every moment

My spirit cries for you,my eyes want to gaze upon you, never wanting to leave .

My Lord,My Love,My Life.

I need you......................

PRESSING ON!

2008-01-11T17:13:00.000-06:00

There are times in your life where you are just paralyzed with fear to Go and make your dreams happen, can i say i am afraid... afraid that i might fail.. afraid of succeeding... afraid that i will be alone ... but i realize that i cannot be afraid of those things anymore .. i have to be fearless .. not on my own but with Jesus ,He is with me . I might walk this path of my life alone with no one to hold my hand but i must remember always that i do have one that WILL always go with me and he is always holding my hand ,and that's all that matters ... there is a time where NOTHING Else matters in life EXCEPT a life filled with the HOPE and PROMISES that our Lord has for us personally. I know that I will not let obstacles that are in my path make me stumble and fall. I have made allot of mistakes in my life but what matters is i have learned from them and i will NEVER return to them and they have made me a stronger person . I am going to fulfill all that God wants me to do. I will walk past the fear of failure and rejection.I will press towards HIS goal for my life .I will fulfill my calling . I WILL PRESS ON!!

MOVING FORWARD......CROSSING OVER!

2008-01-06T23:55:00.000-06:00

Lately i have been crying out to the Father about where i am in life , i feel stuck and stagnant, not falling back (thank God) but not moving forward ... I have this burning desire to go out and do what i have been called to do ...more than i have ever felt ... and the creative side of me has so many things racing through my mind but i don't know where to start or even how to ... i have been praying that God would lead me to people in my living area that need him and to prepare there hearts for that encounter . i want to go full force in what he wants of me. today Pastor spoke on crossing over and starting fresh ... that's what has been in my spirit also i am tired of this place I'm in ... i want soo much to GO! i feel a tugging and pulling to in my spirit but i don't know where to go what direction to go in as far as my life ... last night i just cryed and ask God to give me that direction to lead me to contacts and resources to get me going !! ... I WANT TO GO FORWARD, I WANT TO CROSS OVER INTO MY DESTINY!!! .... I'M READY!!!

who wants to go with me!! ....all are welcome!!!

KEEPING YOUR FOCUS

2007-11-13T00:42:00.000-06:00

Today while in prayer God gave me this vision and word!

Vision:
I was walking down a long hallway with doors on each side and one door at the end of the hallway,

Word from God:
There are many doors to your right and to your left but your goal is the door straight ahead, keep your eyes fixed on the door ahead. the doors on the side are distractions from the enemy they draw your attention and focus off the door at the end ,your goal. they entice you , calling your name to open them and enter through them but do not open them , do not aim your focus on them, keep your focus on the goal door which is me and your destination. Don't look to your left or right but keep your focus on the door straight ahead .... your promised destination which is me.

my thoughts about this :.......
There are many things that seek to take your focus off the goal(JESUS and his promises to you) drawing your attention... problems ,family, home life, work, friends,activities, even ministries, they are all important, but you may lose sight and forget your main goal or focus. if you let them they can all become distractions and draw you away from getting close to God and having that intimate time and relationship with him. We MUST keep our focus on Jesus .. if we do all the other things will fall into place. TRUST in God. and ""seek first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added to you!!" while all the above things i mentioned are real important ,your main focus and goal should be God!
I thank God that he loves me enough to tell me when my focus is straying ... and gently guides my eyes back to to him... I want my eyes to be ever fixed on him ALWAYS!!!!

THE BATTLE FOR YOUR GARDEN

2007-10-31T09:17:00.000-05:00

The Battle for Your GardenDr. Creflo A. Dollar

There is a very real spiritual battle that is going on in the life of every Christian and it revolves around your spiritual "garden," which is the ground of your heart. The enemy is constantly seeking to overtake Believers' lives by planting the wrong kinds of seeds within them. He does this through thought injections that are designed to create wrong images in their minds. As a soldier in the army of the Lord, it is your responsibility to vigilantly guard your heart and mind with the Word of God. This will keep the weeds out of your garden and ensure that the seed of God's Word grows up in your life to produce an abundant harvest.
Every day, Christians are barraged with images, words and suggestions that try to sway them away from the truth of God's Word. Whether it is a news report that glorifies the work of the enemy, an ungodly television show or even a billboard that promotes an ungodly lifestyle, there is no escaping the fact that we live in an environment that is determined to plant the wrong seeds in us. But God has given us His bag of seed that we must plant in our hearts. It will grow healing, deliverance, financial wealth, joy, peace, happiness and all kinds of promises from God.
The key to making sure your garden stays "weed-free" is to guard it. You must continually keep scriptures before your eyes, in your ears and coming out of your mouth. Satan is on a mission to try and dominate your life and all he does to accomplish his goal is get you thinking about his suggestions. Though they may sound good, don't take the bait.
It is critical that you become a custodian over your thought life and refuse to accept the enticement of the devil. Adam and Eve fell prey to his schemes in the Garden of Eden because they failed to guard what God had entrusted to them. Satan showed up in the form of a serpent and made a suggestion to Eve. His question, "Hath God said...?" planted a seed of doubt in her mind as to the validity of God's instructions to her and her husband. Although God had already told them that if they ate the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil they would surely die, Satan challenged God's Word. Isn't that what he is doing today in the lives of Christians? God has said one thing, and he comes with a contradictory statement to try and get us to doubt or question whether or not God's way is best.
Unfortunately, Adam and Eve succumbed to the temptation of the devil. Once they "took" his thought injection, they began to be moved by their emotion, noticing that the fruit looked good and appealed to their hunger cravings at the time. Their feelings led them to act in a way that separated them from their connection and fellowship with God. Their decision to disobey ushered a curse into the earth. They allowed the devil to pollute their garden simply by accepting his thoughts.
You may be wondering how you can avoid being infected by the enemy's thoughts. Although you may not be able to stop the thoughts from coming, you don't have to accept them when they come. The Bible gives clear instructions on how to handle ungodly thoughts when they show up. Second Corinthians 10:4,5 says, "(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ." Your weapon against negative thoughts is the Word of God! When those suggestions come to your mind, open your mouth and confess God's promises in faith. This is what it means to capture your thoughts and cast them down. There is no thought or imagination that can stand against the Word. It is the final authority in your life.
Don't ever get slack where guarding your heart is concerned for the issues of your life flow out of it (Proverbs 4:23). Be a good custodian over your thought life and feed your spirit the Word of God on a continual basis. When you do, you will protect your garden and see the promises of God become a reality in your life.

I WILL......

2007-10-29T17:16:00.000-05:00

I will lift my voice in praise to the mighty KING .. the one who saved me from myself and from the darkness, I will worship Him who sits on the throne ,the one who takes my hand and lifts me up whene i fall and when my burdens wiegh me down. I will sing to him , the one who gives me a new song in my spirit daily ,the one who hears my voice as i lift it up in praise to him. i will dance for him, the one who moves my feet and my hands as i dance before him with all my might and to the one who dances over me when i do not know!! .......I WILL GIVE HIM ALL MY WORSHIP WITH ALL MY HEART ,SOUL, AND MIND ! I WILL GIVE HIM ALL MY PRAISE BECAUSE HE IS WORTHY AND BECAUSE OF WHO HE IS................. HE IS THE LORD ALMIGHTY , GOD, MAKER OF ALL, AND I WILL WORSHIP HIM WHO IS THE MIGHTY KING AND SAVIOR OF THE WORLD!!!!

I AM FREE

2007-09-20T20:15:00.000-05:00

Like the mighty wind blowing through the trees
I AM FREE
like the waters falling down a waterfall
I AM FREE
like a child discovering the world around her
I AM FREE
Like a dancer dancing
I AM FREE....................
My Freedom comes from you Lord , you make me move in a way that cant be seen, you break away the confinments that so many others have put on me, i cry out to you with freedom , I worship you with total abandonment because in you,through you and for you i am made whole and i am alive............
I AM FREE

Women On The Front Lines Conference!!!

2007-08-09T13:30:00.000-05:00

The conference was AWESOME!!! . God has truly turned me upside down and inside out for Him!!!. I never knew that I could ever have this kind of encounter with God!!, He has put so much inside of me this past week, I am truly changed. All of the conference was awesome , each speaker bringing insight and something into my life that changed my insight and mindset on things , but the one thing that has really changed me was the teaching and the Holy Spirit through Jill Austin. She taught about Mary the Mother of Jesus, How God loved her and thought so much of her that he chose her to carry the Holy one , The Savior, The promise to the world!. .. and that he thinks so much of us also that he has put a promise in each one of us to carry and to birth. But yet when that promise has laid dormant for so long you feel like it had died, you doubted that God had even spoken to you and gave you that promise. This is where I was at before we went to the conference, I felt as if everything God has ever spoken to me and everything that i had been dreaming of was either a lie or it had been crushed and destroyed. at one point she had played a cd and told us to go to that place of dashed dreams and brokenness, oh.. let me tell you , I have never in my life felt so grieved and so lonely i cried , not just cried , I groaned and screamed. It was a place of deep, deep healing for me. praise God!!. After it was over I felt the presence of Gods peace surround me,I felt the dashed hopes ,dreams and promises come alive in me once again. God is So AWESOME!!!. At another point she had us go into the very heart of Jesus she had us go to the wailing wall of Jesus's heat . I was on my face groaning , crying and deeply interceding for the lost and for my own life . I never interceeded like that in my life,wow. Then she told us to pray for one another and for the fire of God to come over them, let me tell ya such boldness came over me that i prayed the fire over everyone around me. No longer was I this shy meek Amy you see now God put such a boldness and freedom within me. well that is all. isn't God AWESOME!!! . I know that God has truly changed me and i know that HE IS MY AWESOME GOD!!!. and I say to Him right now .. Here I am Lord use me!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY LOVE

2007-06-25T19:44:00.000-05:00

With arms that are inviting, calls to me when I'm fighting the struggle , the pain,the fear , the strain . He calls with a gentle voice that vibrates to my very being. His voice is like a gentle flow of water but as loud as a roaring lion. His words pierce my heart, right to the very fibers of my body,pulsating into my weary spirit, His breath fills my lungs with life . Oh He is my Love , My life , The very reason I live. I cant get enough of Him, I want more, all that he is, all that he has, My Jesus My Love ...I cry out for you .There is no other ,You are my all, You are my LOVE

I want to make a difference

2007-06-02T14:55:00.000-05:00

If you haven't seen the movie Freedom Writers then i recommend you watch it! it is about a teacher who went to extreme measures to change kids who were in gangs and were underprivileged this teacher made a difference in peoples lives!! ..... after watching this it made me think of what i am doing to make a difference and i am disappointed in myself because i haven't stood up and tried to make a difference even just a little in someones life . I want so much for God to to use me but i am so scared of failing , failing myself , failing others , and failing God, i have a timid personality and very shy but i want so much to be bold and fierce for God , I want so much to make a difference in the world even just one life would do , so I'm praying right now for God to use me to make a difference in someones life doesn't matter who they are , where they come from ,what color they are, if they are rich or poor , i want to make a difference ... not for my own glory ... but for his glory and his kingdom

GODS FAVOR

2007-05-29T18:50:00.000-05:00

God's favor verses your ability

Genesis 50:15-21 is the testimony of an overcomer.

Life is full of ups and downs. Even in our emotions. One day impressed, the next day depressed. One day optimistic, the next day pessimistic.

To get from the pit to the palace you have to go through the ups and downs. Everytime you go down, when you come up, you go higher than before. You learn your lessons when you go down. Thank Him when you are down, pray and trust Him while you are down, for it is only a matter of time, before the Lord will raise you up and for some of us, raise you up again. God is just trying to take you higher and for you, the high road has to go pass the low. Mountain to valley to mountain, just don't let God hear you complaining while you are in the valley yet rejoicing on the mountaintop. Your praise shall be continually, you should always be blessing the name of our God.

The favor of God will carry you, cover you, connect you with whatever is necessary and needed in your life. It will be with you...in the pit, in the prison and in the palace. You don't have to butter up to no one, just butter up to Jesus. It's His opinion that counts anyway. Never mind what folks say or think about you, what do you say/think about you? As a man/woman thinketh in his/her heart, so is he/she. God's favor is not regulated nor governed by circumstances and how others view or feel about you.

Favor follows:
God's favor will cause people to help you and they don't know why. It will also cause people to become angry, bitter and jealous over you for absolutely no reason at all.

Man/woman of purpose--everything that happens is according to the plan of God for your life: crying because someone did you wrong? the plan! someone forgot about you on "that" day? part of the plan! the one who lied on you, the one that keeps mistreating you? yep, in the plan!
Have hope, don't worry. God will vindicate His righteousness, are you His righteousness?

Romans 8:28 What you thought to hurt me,God used to help me.
What you thought to bring me down, God used to raise me up.

Give God a shout of praise

PASSION PURSUIT

2007-04-26T14:28:00.000-05:00

I received this in an email, this is whats been on my heart about worship ,It speaks volumes to me! read and enjoy!

Passionate Pursuit
Adorations From a Prophet
blown through His Living Ram's Horn
*Apostle Patterson*

As I was in worship God spoke to me and said MY DAUGHTER I NEED YOU TO SHOW YOUR ADORATION FOR ME...He began to reveal to me that Worship have became a mere time slot in the church...As He spoke unto me He started me to write this series of PROPHETIC writings entitled ADORATIONS From a Prophet...

God is truly crying out to His Church to come and come fast to a PASSIONATE PURSUIT of the Father...Through out the word we see that there is several occasion where woman that had very lewd descriptions about them BUT yet their encounter with Jesus lead to powerful lesson of worshiping the Father...
Luke 7:37 And behold, a woman of the town who was an especially wicked sinner, when she learned that He was reclining at table in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster flask of ointment (perfume).

Luke 7:38 And standing behind Him at His feet weeping, she began to wet His feet with [her] tears; and she wiped them with the hair of her head and kissed His feet [affectionately] and anointed them with the ointment (perfume).
Luke 7:39 Now when the Pharisee who had invited Him saw it, he said to himself, If this Man were a prophet, He would surely know who and what sort of woman this is who is touching Him--for she is a notorious sinner (a social outcast, devoted to sin).

Here is a SINNER willing to give up all to show her passionate pursuit...Yet we are what we call the greatest age of HISTORY refusing to give up all to passionately pursue...A God that Truly deserve a TRUE WORSHIPPER...

Not one that thinks that He is begging us to worship us...NO HE HAVE HIS HOST OF ANGELS that is doing that Worship is beyond Something God needs it is a WONDERFUL experience for US...One that we greatly have abused, misused and misunderstood..

How many of us thought God was after our WORSHIP..NO HE IS AFTER YOU...He wants all of you He wants to fill you no better yet He wants to put you in His Heart...We have made worship all about a SONG...and not about us surrendering to a HOLY GOD...

Worship is a LIFESTYLE we say it and yet have not lived it!!!!

Too many think if they write the perfect song or find the perfect song they have WORSHIPPED...No God say want you be MY SONG...Why want you be the MELODY of that which I sing...

God told me that we are so busy teaching people to witness and never taught them to worship...We try to cram people in our church to get a body count and never care about their LIFESTYLE....THAT IS WORSHIP...How can we ignore the Lifestyles of others when we are to worship together... One moment we claim it to be lifestyle but we refuse to cry out against idol worship...We have accepted corrupt lifestyles and dare say they are worshippers...

When are we going to pour out...When is our Pursuit going to be PASSIONATE enough to break out of TRADITION break out of our arrogant facades...When is worship going to be pure again...

Is this prophetic yes!!! God is crying out to His Church and SAYING I WANT YOU BACK....
We need to become worshippers instead of seeking worship service...

This woman showed us our lack and our refusal of true passion and yet SHE WAS A SINNER... Here we are A Fat Church full of Titles and Education but yet will not lay it down to give our self into worship...

This woman went out of the norm to show her passion...Can the Church come out of the fads started by blind leaders..Stop following Names of the glamor teachers... Those that made worship about them...

IM STILL STANDING!!!

2007-04-11T10:16:00.001-05:00

Thats Right ,I WILL NOT give up, I WILL NOT give in, I WILL NOT lose this battle (its already won)! ......... I WILL FIGHT, I WILL STAND!!!!!!.. The enemy thought that he had won and that he had defeated me yesterday but im STLL hear i am STILL standing !! and I will KEEP standing , My Jesus has picked me up and dusted me off , He has givin me NEW strength! ... There aint no devil in hell that can defeat my Lord, and my Lord is FOR ME, WITH ME ,IN ME , AROUND ME and ABOUT ME!!! ....... Im AM HIS and HE IS MINE! I WILL NOT LET GO OF HIM!! FOR ANYONE OR ANYTHING !!!........... if you are lonely,hurting ,depressed,if you feel that no one cares,that you want to die, or that you give up LET ME TELL YOU OF THE ONE THAT CAN HELP YOU , deliver you, strenghthen you,love you,save you, HIS NAME IS JESUS!! CALL ON HIM hes waiting , hes near reach out ,grab hold of the hem of his garment HE WILL TOUCH YOU, HE LOVES YOU LIKE NO OTHER!!! CALL TO HIM CRY OUT TO HIM HE IS NEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

How Clean Is Your House!!

2007-04-02T23:44:00.000-05:00

I'm so Happy .. i am almost done with my spring cleaning only the kids closets and behind their dressers to do tomorrow! , i cant believe i cleaned for 5 hours I feel so accomplished today!hahaha ...time flys when your having fun huh!!!. anyways when i was cleaning God was speaking to me about cleaning our spiritual houses , we tend to focus on cleaning our material homes , but what about our spiritual homes and lives, they are important to clean up to , even more than the house we live in. As time goes by we tend to neglect what we let in to our minds and spirits and it tends to get "dirty" and it tends to build up, thus we have worldly build up in our spirits, As children of God we need to Go to him and let him do some spring cleaning in our lives! so that we can reflect his image without being dirty and cluttered with the worlds "stuff" I know that's what I'm going to do right now!!!ahhhh to have a clean house so refreshing and new! .... How about you? have you let God spring clean your house today???!!!

BE FREE

2007-03-29T09:21:00.000-05:00

YOU know I'm tired of being fearful and shy ! Its time to let go of all my inhibitions and let God flow through me like never before , you see i am a very shy person, i don't like to talk much unless i know you very well and feel comfortable enough to be myself (which i can be very what my kids say "dorky" at times ) I guess if i feel as if i have to impress people and then i end up not saying anything in fear of saying something really dumb, I can express myself great when writing but when i speak my words get all jumbled and then i don't make any sense at all ! But today i want to let go of that fear ,i want to Let God work and speak through me even in just casual conversations, I want to be Bold and Fierce for him , to let go of the fear of saying something dumb and just say what I'm thinking and not care if it sounds perfect to the hearer, i want to let go and just be who God made me to be! in every relationship and in every social setting! I want to be free ..... NO, I AM FREE!!! ....... :)

Flying High On Eagles Wings!!

2007-03-07T09:07:00.000-06:00

I have been thinking about what to say in this post for 3 days now, Words cannot express the experience I had this past weekend. On March 1-3 myself and two other Ladies went with our Pastor to Georgia to an Eagles wings conference its more like a intense intersession ,praise and worship service for 3 days !! we prayed , worshiped,praised, danced before God ,& did intense spiritual warfare, it was truly life changing for me . I feel i am better equipped to do what God has called me to do , better equipped to do more intense worship, more intense interssesion,and more intense warfare . While I was there I have never felt so much freedom just to let go and let loose and just dance and praise My God! Without even thinking about what others thought of me ,I JUST DID what was on my heart to do!! I am certain that God has brought me the next level to worship him like never before,with a new boldness ,with a new step in my praise!I will never ever be the same!!
and I also want to say to those I went and spent time with ... YOU ALL are so awesome I will forever cherish the time I spent with you three, you are truly 3 amazing ,(and super funny!) people!! I love ya !

"HANNAH'S DESTINY"

2007-02-22T22:33:00.000-06:00

This spoke soooo much to me ...... read and recieve!!

"HANNAH'S DESTINY"~

Victoria Boysonwww.speakinglife.net/

All Hannah wanted was a son, but God wanted a prophet for His people and a friend for Himself. "There was a certain man from Ramathaim, a Zuphite from the hill country of Ephraim, whose name was Elkanah . . . He had two wives; one was called Hannah and the other Peninnah. Peninnah had children, but Hannah had none" (1 Samuel 1:1-2). "And because the Lord had closed her womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her" (1 Samuel 1:6). The story of these two women is not an uncommon one. God often uses irritating people to draw us closer to Him and to push us toward our destiny. God will put people in our lives that have what we want (and are willing to torture us with it) in order that we might seek Him for the fulfillment of the promise He has made to us. Peninnah became increasingly smug over the fact that she had been given children and Hannah had not. And she used her children as a weapon to grieve Hannah. "This went on year after year. Whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept and would not eat" (1 Samuel 1:7).

MOVED TO DESPERATION

God desired to do something great for Hannah, but first He would need to prepare her for it. God used Peninnah's deplorable behavior to provoke Hannah and irritate her. That is right, it is true that God needed to irritate Hannah. He needed to bring Hannah to the point of desperation, so much so that she would be willing to give Samuel to Him (see 1 Samuel 1:11). Hannah's pain and disgrace must have been great or she never would have prayed such a prayer. Her desire for a child must have been agonizing, and now she had promised to give that child away? She had no guarantee of ever having more than one child at this point, but her mind was made up. The child would be given to the Lord.To be without children during that time in history was a great humiliation for a woman. Women of this region were considered children, until they had children. Only as a mother would she be given the respect and authority due an adult. As Hannah got older her disgrace became greater, and she could not escape Peninnah's irritating remarks. This went on for years, until Hannah was so desperate to remove her disgrace that she made a promise to God: if He gave her a son, she would give the boy back to Him."In bitterness of soul, Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord. And she made a vow, saying, 'O Lord Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant, but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head' " (1 Samuel 1:10-11).

A PROMISE IS BORN

Hannah, at the very lowest point of her life, prayed her most desperate prayer. She pleaded with God to take away her barrenness and bless her with a son. "Don't forget me!" she cried. She saw everyone around her receiving blessings from God and getting the desires of their hearts, yet she remained barren. She reached the greatest point of misery she had ever known, and laid out her heart before God. Hannah vowed to make the greatest sacrifice any woman could be asked to make. Her sorrow was so great it turned her soul bitter. Out of this bitter sorrow, a promise was born. Hannah's heart was open before God and her tears were never more sincere. Into this precious scene blundered Eli, but he did not see Hannah for what she truly was. She was a woman after God, but Eli mistook the most sincere and heartwrenching moment of her life for that of drunkenness."Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving, but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk and said to her, 'How long will you keep on getting drunk? Get rid of your wine' " (1 Samuel 11:13-14).Perhaps, at times, you have had similar experiences to Hannah's. Your heart was outstretched and open before God, but people around you didn't recognize it as anything out of the ordinary or special. To some you may even seem sinful, but they have judged you incorrectly. The very people we think should recognize our potential are the ones that accuse us of being unspiritual or lacking what it takes to fulfill our potential. Not only did Eli miss the importance of what Hannah was going through, but he also completely misinterpreted her actions toward God.

THE AVENUE OF OFFENSE

At this moment Hannah could have walked away offended, but her need was much too great. She was desperate and wanted what only God could give her, no matter what she had to endure to get it. Some of our greatest blessings come to us through the avenue of offense. Hannah could have walked away, humiliated and discouraged, but she did not. She explained herself to Eli. When he realized how greatly he had misjudged her, he felt so badly that he blessed her instead."Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him" (1 Samuel 1:17).She received a blessing from Eli that she may not have had he not offended her. She received his blessing as being from God and, "she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast" (v 18). She was confident that God had blessed her through Eli even though he had misjudged her. She may never have received what she needed from God, except that her longsuffering brought her the answer to her heart's cry. Hannah was not only a godly woman, but her son would eventually take Eli's place in the temple and restore to Israel everything that Eli's sons had lost.

A GROWING PROMISE

Hannah had already conceived Samuel in her heart before she ever conceived him physically. The dream of him had already been growing inside her. She was pregnant in the Spirit with the promise of God. No one, not even Eli, could see the transformation taking place in her heart. It was between her and God alone. She had a secret, a hope, and a dream. When she was referred to as "barren" by others seeking to injure her, she clung to the hope of God's enduring faithfulness. Similarly, when a woman is first pregnant, no one knows she is pregnant except her. No one else can see what is happening inside her. It is her secret. We, too, carry the promises of God secretly inside us. Others can't see anything special in us because God has hidden it from them. They may even misinterpret our desire for God to be something that is sinful or worldly. No matter how spiritual people are, they cannot see what God has hidden from them. Just like a baby hidden in the womb, so are the promises God has given to us. He speaks to us of our future as if to impregnate us with His will and purpose for our lives.We want to tell the whole world what God has spoken to us. But the promises that the Lord has given to us should be treasured in our hearts and not shared with others who may not be able to see that which God has hidden from them.

DESTINY'S IRRITATION

God desires to do great things for us as well. But, like with Hannah, He must drive us to desperation so great that we are willing to give to Him the very thing we are asking Him for.God uses people like Peninnah, to irritate us (see 1 Samuel 1:6) and provoke us until we are willing to do whatever it takes to receive our destiny in Him. The closer we are to the fulfillment of our destiny, the greater the irritation becomes, until we give up our claims to our destiny. We give up our dreams in exchange for His will; our ambitions for His plan. In return, we not only receive what we were hoping for, but more than we have even dreamt of. Hannah not only got the son she desired, but her family line was established, through Samuel, as priests to the Lord forever. In addition to Samuel, she was also blessed with five other children. God desires to do much more through us than we think is possible, but it must be done His way. Through His mercy, He keeps us from accepting less than all He has for us. All Hannah wanted was a son, but God wanted a prophet for His people and a friend for Himself.

PROMISE THROUGH THE PAIN"

In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the Lord" (1 Samuel 1:10). I have heard people say that God would not do anything to them that would cause them to suffer. They say, "God wants to bless me!" and I say, yes, God does want to bless us, but some of our greatest blessings come out of our greatest pain. If we do not experience the pain, it is more difficult for us to appreciate the blessings we are given. It did not please God to cause Hannah such misery, but He could see the future and He needed Samuel. The only way He could get the promise to her was through the pain. God does see your struggle and your pain; He hurts with you and weeps with you. He is begging you not to give up, because He can see your future and it is great! "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and a hope" (Jeremiah 29:11).The Lord's presence remained with all of Israel through Samuel, because Hannah chose not to give up on the dream she had in her heart. She chose to believe that God loved her and saw her as special even when others did not. If the Lord has given you a dream or a promise of something so wonderful that others cannot receive it, keep it hidden in your heart as a secret treasure, until the moment of its birth. Some things should be kept between you and the Lord. He is jealous for your heart and wants you to Himself. Do not look for acceptance from anyone but Him; hold onto the God who loves you. His will will be done!

Thankful

2007-01-26T15:48:00.000-06:00

IM Just so thankful , Thankful To God for loving me , thankful for my kids, friends, family &church . God has done so much in my life ,especially in the last few years, I went from a bad marriage to a divorce to my daughter moving out . He has brought me through so much , at the time I thought I could never survive this( and that's true if he wasn't in my life) but I did through Gods strength . He will never leave or forsake me . Its so amazing what life throws at you but with Gods soverine hand upon you, you can survive anything, He will never put on you more than you can bare(though sometimes you feel like you going to die and collapse from the presser of it all)!! I thank God he put those people in my life that helped me through it all,. Now He has put a new strength in me and a new vision for my life . He has given me a hope and a awesome future, and is raising me up to do what he has called me to do. I love Him so!

A NEW HUNGER!!

2007-01-23T14:39:00.000-06:00

In the last week God has been working overtime on me, and moving at a fast rate!I am being filled with a unquenchable hunger(& thirst) for more of Him. More time with Him,more of His Holy Spirit, more prayer more fasting , more WORSHIP,&more of His word. I thought other time that "nothing can top this feeling " but I was sooooo wrong, the feeling and the DEEP hunger I have for Jesus right now is so overwhelming, I have never ever felt such a closeness with God as I do now ,not even when I first gave my life to Him 17 years ago. I am seeing and feeling so much growth in my life and so much more faith its unreal. I cant even describe what God has revealed to me and promised me its so awesome is all I can say . I find myself praying and praising Him all day instead of just once or twice a day , I am reading and feasting on His word more.Im saying all this not to uplift myself , but to uplift GOD, HE has done this . He put this hunger in my spirit to do His work and to fulfill his calling on my life. By His strength IM being made whole. All I have done is simply obey what He has told me to do personally and in His word.(seek first the kingdom of heaven and all these things will be added to you!!!!) YES AMEN!!! My heart is filled with the unstoppable JOY and PEACE of my Lord !! Yes Lord Fill me more!! I Hunger For more of you!!!

A PROPHETIC PRAYER FOR 2007

2006-12-31T00:00:00.000-06:00

Father in the mighty awesome name of Jesus I pray that this coming year of 2007 you will release your blessing and your Awesome power on your people , pour out your spirit on us Lord! We need it & we want it , not to please our flesh Lord but to build up our spirits . I call forth revival, I call forth those heavenly visions and visitations , I call forth miracles ,signs and wonders, I speak to the dry places in our lives ....Be filled with the living water!! I speak to the dead and weary places in our lives .. LIVE by the power of the Holy spirit! I speak forth repentance to America and to the lost and to the Nations , LIFT YOUR VOICES ALL , PRAISE HIM , TURN TO HIM , BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU , HE DESIRES YOU TO TALK WITH HIM & TO LOVE HIM . In THE MIGHTY NAME OF JESUS ............AMEN!!!!!

2006-12-23T22:42:00.000-06:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

AWAKEN

2006-12-20T09:16:00.000-06:00

Awaken my soul to the Fathers Love, Awaken my spirit to the Love and compassion that only you have for me! Bring me To the very heartbeat of God,arise spirit to the Holy one that calls your name. My soul ever longs to be with you my God my Love . Every breath I breath is more of the Father filling me with the vital air of his lungs . Oh how I long for the day when my eyes behold you, The Glory and the splendor of your presence, I will fall to my face before you in awe of your holiness, You are so Holy and so worthy of our praise. I long to sit at your feet and sing praises to your name , to touch the hem of your garment so that I will be whole. Oh Lord my Savior my Father My Love. I thirst for your living water that quenches the dry places of my soul, and I hunger for the bread of life that lets my spirit live. I love you so much that my spirit crys for you forever.Oh my Lord, forever will I worship and praise you!

HELP BURIED ALIVE!!!

2006-12-01T20:24:00.000-06:00

This morning we woke up to 10 inches of snow ,i opened the front door and couldn't get out till they shoveld , ,cars were buried because of the snow drifts !! the kids are gonna have fun playing out in it tommorrow!

2006-11-28T11:31:00.000-06:00

"THERE'S A WHOLE LOT OF SHAKING GOING ON"
~ Donna Kazenske

Have you felt as if your whole world has been severely shaken lately? Has there been an increase of attack against you and your family? Has discouragement gripped your heart and mind. Are you ready to just give up?

If you answered "yes" to all the above questions, this article is for you.

The enemy is a thief and a liar. He wants to kill, steal and destroy. He wants to mess up your destiny and He will use whatever means is available to him to do just that. We must not give in to the wiles and plans of the enemy of our souls.

We must continue to press in to God's presence. We must continue to stand on the promises of God because they are "yes" and "amen" to our spirit man.

I believe the body of Christ is experiencing a backlash of attacks from all sides, but we must not allow these attacks to discourage us and cause us to get our eyes off of Jesus. If we lose our focus, we will lose the battle.

The enemy wants us to focus on all the bad things that are happening all around us. He wants to focus on everything that's NOT happening. This is directly opposite of what the word of God teaches us.

The word of God teaches us to focus our eyes upon Jesus. The word of God teaches us to set our minds on things above, not on things on the earth. Meaning, we must stop looking at all the bad things that are happening all around us (in the natural realm) and return our focus to Jesus and things above.

I personally have been going through a little season of major shaking. At first, my focus shifted from Jesus to all that was happening in my life. I found myself getting a little depressed because my eyes were on ME, not Jesus.

Thoughts such as these were going through my mind, "Where are You God? I've done my best to serve you and live for you. How come I'm sicker than a dog right now? How come you're not healing me? What have I done that is so wrong?

Why are others getting blessed and I'm down here in this black pit? How come You're not answering my prayers God? Why are the heavens like brass?

Why are some in the body of Christ having angelic visitations and awesome revelations from Your throne and I'm laying here sick in my body, discouraged in my soul and wanting to just give up everything?

In fact God, things are so bad down here that I might just give up the ministry. Nothing is happening Lord. Where are You?"

Have you had these kinds of thoughts rolling around in your mind lately? Have you been questioning God? Have you been questioning your call? Have you been questi oning everything?

Questions such as these reveal doubt and unbelief in our hearts. If we are questioning God, our focus needs adjusted. If we have felt like giving up, our focus needs adjusted.

Faith does not doubt. Faith believes in and through all things regardless of what is going on around us. Faith perseveres. Faith never gives up.

Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. He never changes. He is the same God in the valley as on the mountain top.

When our focus is shifted to ourselves and our situations, we have a tendency to drift away from intimacy with God. When our focus is upon Jesus, we have a tendency to draw nigh unto Him.

God is calling us to Himself, regardless of what is going on around us. As we draw nigh to Jesus, we will find the joy, peace and strength that we need to make it through the times of shaking.

God hasn't left us. He has not forsaken us in the times of shaking.

When things are being shaken, that which falls off or falls away during the shaking is that which needs to be removed from our lives. That which falls off during the shaking is that which has stopped producing life in and through us.

That which remains steadfast during the shaking is that which will continue to produce life in and through us. There are things in our lives that need to fall away. Things that have held us back. Things that have held us up. Things that have kept us from going forward in God. These things all need to fall off of us; they need to be removed.

God is pruning His body once again. New things are in store for all of us. God is getting us ready for that which is to come. Don't hold on to those things that need to fall away. Let them go. Allow the new to come. Allow God to prune away that which needs to be removed.

When a tree is pruned, the produce of that tree will increase. Are you willing to be pruned so that God can bring the increase in your life? Don't you want to be a tree that is producing fruit in large amounts?

Increase is coming to those who allow the pruning to take place. Increase is coming to those who will not allow themselves to shift their focus off of Jesus onto their circumstances. We must refocus. We must keep our eyes on Jesus and all that He has promised us in His word.

He is a prayer answering God. He hears every single prayer we pray in faith believing. He will answer our prayers. He has heard the cries of our hearts. We must continue to stand in faith believing God for all things. We must not allow the enemy to detour us from our God ordained destiny.

We must not give up the good fight of faith. We must lay hold of Jesus and continue to press in to Him. We must worship Him in spirit and truth. We must learn how to prevail against the enemy and keep our eyes upon Jesus.

We must stop complaining about all that's going wrong and begin praising God for all that's going right. We must take on the same attitude as our Lord Jesus. We must learn how to tarry in that place of intimacy and prayer. We must not allow circumstances to get us down.

We must continually allow the Holy Spirit to take us up to the high places in God, heavenly places where we are seated together with Christ, far above circumstances and every demonic thing. We must remain in that place of prayer and praise and learn how to abound in the goodness and greatness of our God.

We are not to live as defeated citizens of heaven, but overcomers in Christ Jesus our Lord. We must learn how to declare and decree the goodness of God, speaking to those things that are not as though they were. Faith will always carry us through the valley of the shadow of death and destruction. Doubt and unbelief will leave you deserted in the valley.

Be encouraged today dear saint of God. God is with you. God is for you. No weapon formed against you shall prosper. What more could you want in this life?

God is on your side and He has a divine destiny for you to fulfill in this life. Don't allow the enemy to take that from you. It's yours! Lay hold of it and press on in God.

2006-11-23T12:39:00.000-06:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sad!

2006-11-21T20:55:00.000-06:00

IM feeling sad today , my kids are leaving for Missouri
tomorrow at 12:30 with their dad for Thanksgiving. IM not looking forward to this, this is the first time ill be spending a holiday without them. Not only that they will be gone for 5 days! But IM going to try to keep my head up and spend this time getting closer to the Lord . And IM going to spend some one on one time with my oldest daughter . So if ya know me give me a call and maybe we can go out for lunch or something to catch up !! Anyway gotta go for now , I will probably write more tomorrow!!!

AWESOME NEWS!!!!!!

2006-11-09T16:08:00.000-06:00

My Daughter Nikki just found out today shes having TWINS!!! HEEHEE, Im gonna be a grandma 3 times LOLOL

FRUSTRATED!! AAAAHHHHH!!!!

2006-11-09T02:08:00.000-06:00

Why is it everytime i get a car the dumb thing breaks!!!!!!!!!!!!im tired of this!!! i just want to SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

TO CUTE!!!!!

2006-10-29T19:51:00.000-06:00

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What's inside of me!!

2006-10-20T02:17:00.000-05:00

I will Praise my Lord , I will open my mouth and let your praise flow from my innermost being, For you my Lord are worthy of my praise. When the storms and the uncertainty of life invades my mind I will run to my quiet place and seek you, because you my king are my strength,you are my hiding place, my shelter in the storm. I will lay before you my God , my creator, seeking your enveloping presence to cover me . My mouth , even my spirit cries out for you , because you my Creator my savior are my reason for my very exsistance. Let your life giving breath flow through me , breathing life into my weary body so that it may rise up and do the very work you have planned out for me to do. Speak into my troubled mind dispersing every negative thought that the enemy whispers into my ears. Lift my eyes and help me to look up to you and help me to keep my focus on your faithfulness to me, I praise you my father for the love that you have for me ,let that love flow though me and touch others so that they can feel and know the everlasting love you have for them. Oh my Lord, my king, my creator , My shield , You are worthy , I will Shout praise to you forever and ever . Praise you my Father , Glory to you . I love you always and forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please pray

2006-10-14T20:40:00.000-05:00

The little girl i babysit for is sick , please keep her in prayer . also i have to watch her tommarow pray that my kids and i will be protected from getting this sickness . thanks.

IM CHANGED FOREVER!!!

2006-10-08T13:58:00.000-05:00

God is so Awesome and so faithful!! . Friday night and all day Saturday The intersessory Prayer group that I'm am in hosted a woman's conference . God showed up SO MIGHTILY. ALL the speakers were Awesome . And Gods annoiting was all over them. Gods presence was sooo thick and he was breaking some demonic strongholds in the spiritual realm in this area (Orion, the cities, and the surrounding areas) .But what was so personally awesome for me was that I have NEVER felt so much love and his mighty power as I did these 2 days , over and over though many people God was telling me he loved me so much and that im the apple of his eye and that he dances over me when he thinks of me. Wow. Sat morning the speaker was speakin about the story of Esther. at the end of her message she presented a teiarra and a pink shaw ,she was covering us with the shaw and putting the teiarra on our heads (she did this to bring out the Esther annioting in us ) when it was my turn I was shaking and when she put the shaw over my head and then the teiarra I wept so hard and the speaker said to people look at this look how beautiful she is , ( now mind you I don't think of myself that way I have (had) very low self esteem ,this is what God wanted me to hear) and I started to shake and cry even harder then when she took the things off of me she told some of the ladies to pray for me this one lady (she is so awesome ) was praying and God was speaking a word though her to me , and he said Who told you my daughter that you were a nothing , who told you that you were not beautiful , who told you that you are not worthy to do what I have called you to do ,there was more but by then I was groaning and crying so hard!! I don't remember !! Then I felt something release in my spirit all the condemnation all the low self esteem, all the pain from my past, all the rejection I felt, all those things I held on to for so long were gone . God said he loved me over and over, and he was putting Love , confidence , boldness, and his love into my spirit!!. OH how I Love my Jesus , . Oh how I love my God !! MY KING!!! . I AM FOREVER CHANGED!!!!

IM GONNA...................

2006-10-03T10:00:00.000-05:00

Be a grandma again!!!! My daughter Nikki is going to have a baby!!! Im so excited .

How Sweet!!!

2006-09-20T12:57:00.000-05:00

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?"
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when hi s hands got arthritis too. That's love." - Rebecca age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." - Billy - age 4

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." - Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." - Terri age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takesa sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." - Danny - age 7

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen." - Bobby - age 7

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy- age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy -age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."Mary Ann - age 4

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry"

AWESOME!!!

2006-09-08T09:54:00.000-05:00

2006-09-05T19:56:00.000-05:00

My dad came through the surgery ok, he is in ICU for 24 hours just as a precaution. Thank you to all who prayed!!!

PLEASE PRAY

2006-09-04T22:50:00.000-05:00

My step father is having hip surgery today (Tues) and the doctors say that because of his on going health problems that he has a 50/50 chance, so please pray . Thank you!!!

REFLECTIONS!!

2006-09-03T14:30:00.000-05:00

If you look real hard you will see two words in each mirrored reflection, This made me think of how we see ourselves and how God sees us . When you look in the mirror what do you see? I know that sometimes when I look in the mirror I see flaws and im VERY critical pointing out EVERY thing that is wrong , but that is my perception , GOD has another "view" of us He sees the potential in us ,He sees the creation he made which is good when we see the bad,He sees what we can become ,we see what we are . There are 2 reflections which one do you see? I choose to see what God sees in me,How about you??

SO EXCITED!! GOD IS SO AWSESOME!!!!

2006-08-29T23:19:00.000-05:00

Hey All,

The last few weeks I've been thinking about a old friend (actually we were best friends) I went to high school with so I decided to look her up ,so I did a people search and I found her!!. She lives in Washington ,I call information and got her # , At first I was scared to call wondering if she would remember me, well when I first called her Father answered and said that she was on vacation and she wouldn't be back until Late Sat. Night so I tried to call Sunday afternoon, I got her answering machine again, feeling anxious I finally left a message on her machine and told her who I was and that we had went to high school together and left my #, Tonight She called , I was So excited I was stumbling over my words ( I hope she didn't think I didn't want to talk ) but when I get that way I cant speak real well !!!. Anyway She told me that she had been thinking of me also & she was trying to look for me to!! Now is that God or what!! What's even more Awesome is that she's a Christian !! . So We exchanged our infos and such and now we are going to keep in touch !! ISN'T GOD SO AWESOME bringing two old buddies together again!! Thank You Jesus !!!!!!!!!!!!

I also gave her the link to this blog so shes going to check it out she might comment her name is Shawnene!! so say hi to her whene she posts!!( hey Shawnene you have to comment now!!!HEE HEE)

TO QUIET!!

2006-08-29T09:09:00.000-05:00

Well the kids are off at school , and I'm sitting here all alone in the quietness of my home feeling a little uncomfortable because its so quiet,usually I love this time so I can have my time with God and clean and do my daily chores but today its different , Today I wish my kids were here or somebody would come over, I have never felt this alone before. I cant think of what else to write maybe I'm supposed to just be still today and just listen .

Submission!!

2006-08-11T02:14:00.000-05:00

James 4:7 - Therefore submit Yourselves to God resist the devil and he will flee from you.

What does it mean to submit to someone or something? To submit means to yield or surrender, to allow oneself to be subjected to something.
This is what God wants us, His children to do, to submit everything in our lives to Him,to yield ourselves to Him completely. Why? Because when we give Him complete control over our lives we have the assurance of a greater outcome of every situation of our lives.If we do not submit to his authority we often take control of the circumstances of our lives and it becomes out of control and ends up a complete mess. Yes its hard to give up that control, but Gods way is better. There will still be trials, and situations that are unbearable may still happen, but if we submit ourselves to God and give him complete control over ALL areas of our lives He will give us the strength we need , He will show us what to do & lead us in the direction we should go. He will protect us from the enemy's attacks and the enemy must GO!! Submit to Him give Him every area of your life and let Him have complete control. Surrender to Him He will not let you down!!

Job !!

2006-08-09T11:59:00.000-05:00

Well, I put in an application for a job at the courthouse but they said it would be a couple of months before they do any interviews soooo keep prayin out there !!!!!

PRAISE JESUS!!!!!

2006-08-01T15:25:00.000-05:00

PRAISE THE LORD I GOT A CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHANGES!!!

2006-07-26T11:59:00.000-05:00

Today I feel blah!! For the last 2 nights around 2:30 or 3 am I've been crying myself to sleep , don't know why, my mind races with thoughts of where my life has been and where its going . I cry out to God for him to tell me what's wrong with me ,why do I do some of the things I do ,why do I feel some of the things I feel, & to be a better mother,friend Christian,daughter and person, not just cry but a deep cry I literally cry out in agony to God, ..........................I need a change in my life , changes in how I live ,changes in my relationships with my children, family friends , changes with my relationship with God. I want a better life for my kids and I. A better future. I asked God to show me where my life is going , what does the future hold for me , I need to know ....For hope, for peace of mind... I feel desperate, I feel soooo desperate for change , I NEED YOU GOD!!! So much more than anyone knows!!! ................

A Daughters Inherintance

2006-07-13T23:14:00.000-05:00

God is calling women of faith to arise and claim land for Him. He is looking for women who have a giant-killing mentality. He is looking for women with an apostolic spirit—women whose burden for souls weighs so heavy that they cannot rest until the whole earth has been filled with His glory.
God wants women who are not content to simply work in the nursery and lead women’s meetings. (Nothing against the nursery, but the church has lost so much of its power by limiting women’s gifts to do domestic things) It is time for women to shake loose from the trappings of religious culture and step into their full potential.
Women can still work in the nursery or the kitchen . But they can also plant churches, disciple new believers, counsel the addicted, heal the sick, perform miracles, cast out devils, own and run successful businesses, feed the poor, hold political office and transform nations for Christ. There is so much territory to be claimed.
Maybe you did not know you could ask for nations. Maybe you did not realize that God has a role for you to play in the evangelization of the world. As you get to know the Father more intimately, you will come to understand that He is eager to give you more when you are willing to ask for it.
The Holy Spirit is showing us God’s heart for women. Although women have been abused and oppressed —even in the church—God will have the last word on this subject . Like Job, human beings are stripped of their dignity and spiritual power because of sin. But when Jesus Christ purchased redemption at Calvary, His blood not only paid the full price for our sins, it also broke the power of shame, guilt and oppression off of women. It made them beautiful again, and restored to them the right to their spiritual inheritance.
Do you know that the Lord sees you as beautiful? Perhaps your self-image has been scarred by life’s disappointments and tragedies.
Many women struggle to find their identity in Christ because of sexual molestation, domestic abuse or the shame of abortion or sexual sin .Don’t let the mistakes of the past or the wounds inflicted by people stop you from gaining your inheritance.
God calls you beautiful. He can take your filthy rags and give you a new wardrobe—one of righteousness and purity. Regardless of the pain of your past, He has a glorious future planned for you.
He created women with unique callings that must be released in full potential.
Claim your inheritance!!!!!!

HE WILL RESCUE YOU!!!

2006-06-29T16:23:00.000-05:00

""" I need you Jesus, to come to my rescue ,where else can I go, there's no other name by which I am saved ,capture me with grace""!!!!!!!

This is a song that I really LOVE ,I cant stop singing it!!. Not only is it a powerful song ,its so true, we all need Him to rescue us from ""stuff"", whether its from our past, from hurt,pain,loneliness,addiction,or from ourselves!!,He will rescue you when you call to him. Last weekend I went to a woman's conference with my prayer group,lIt was about healing and that even though you feel pain from abuse ,rejection,worthlessness,and isolation,and your past, God sees you as a princess,& He is so in love with you. I tell you I went full of pain from abuse (sexual) fear, anger,loneliness,rejection,low self esteem and I felt like I never ""fit in"" anywhere,I came back with a new perspective of who I am in Christ. I feel Loved ,no, I AM LOVED ,By my Father,my creator. He loves me like no other !! And he loves you !!, I'm not completely healed of everything YET, but everyday that passes he heals a little more!!! HE IS SO AWESOME & AMAZING!!!, If you have a past(which all of us do) or if you suffer from abuse (any kind) low self esteem,rejection,fear,or anything else that keeps you bound in chains and keeps you from reaching your destiny in God, then go to him ask him to rescue you, to heal you and to free you from the things that bind you , he is there waiting , cant you feel him , cant you hear him, ...Listen, he's is saying your name, calling you out from the pain of the past, go to him now , yell to him RESCUE ME JESUS.........................

SAD!!!

2006-06-17T10:12:00.000-05:00

Today is sad for me, Today I'm giving away my dog ,Harley, . Not because he's a bad dog , but because he's hard to train, he was destroying and chewing up stuff in my home and because he was doing his business everywhere in my house. I feel like I've failed , but where he's going ill know hell be happier, he will be living with nice people that live in the country so he can run and play outside ,and not cooped up in this small apartment. I know I'm doing the right thing , its just hard, I love him & ill miss him , but I cant have a dog chewing up my furniture and peeing all over my carpet , ya know. I'm sad ......... I'll miss him :(( Father help me and my kids be strong)

MY BABY IS MARRIED!!!!!

2006-06-05T18:55:00.000-05:00

SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL!! AND SO WAS THE WEDDING!!! HERE ARE SOME PICS ALL READY
Walking down the isle
At the alter
the wedding party(most of them!!!)
My grandson the ring bearer
My son and daughters (the usher& book keepers!!!)
MORE PICS BELOW!!!!!!!

2006-06-05T18:07:00.000-05:00

The happy couple
cutting the cake
smooshing cake!!!

First dance
my hair do for the wedding

me (not a good pic of me but oh well)

WEDDING BELLS!!!!

2006-06-02T23:04:00.000-05:00

Well my daughter is getting married tomorrow(Saturday), I'm happy and sad, Happy for her because she's getting married to a nice guy and I anticipate that they are going to be happy together , sad because my baby girl is all grown up!!! I hope and pray God will be with them and my grandson,I pray that they will accept Jesus back into their lives also together. I know she's gonna be happy and BEAUTIFUL tomorrow . I love her!!!! Well bye bye until tomorrow ...................

GODS PROMISE!!!

2006-05-27T22:48:00.000-05:00

This is from a email i got, PLEASE READ!!!!!

"THE TRANSFORMING POWER OF PROPHETIC PROMISE!" ~Undrai & Bridget Fizerwww.fizer.orgThe Spirit of God blesses all of the Father's children with "visions of greatness, prosperity, wonder working exploits of power, and ultimate expressions of Dominion." Embedded within your spirit "is an incredible download of the Kingdom's Intentions, Desires, and Manifest Presence of God!" You are a carrier of "divine happenings, conversations, and purposes, that have taken place BEFORE YOU WERE PLACED IN YOUR MOTHER'S WOMB!" God knows things about you that the earth "has yet to see!"There are some of you "who are experiencing a daily dose of Divine Frustration" as a result of your Purpose and Assignment. You are experiencing "visions, daydreams, and high octane expectations from the Lord." You are seeing all of these incredible things in your mind daily, and the frustration comes as a result of not having yet tangibly "placed your hands upon those dreams!" You are "seemingly" ready to live FROM these prophecies and promises. Confirmations are nice indeed, BUT MANIFESTATIONS KEEP THE SPIRIT FED!However, it is imperative for you to know something. The Father is preparing your Mind "to do the things you see from your Mind."He is giving you the Mentality that is needed to do the exploits that are revealed in your mind. It is imperative for you that your nature also "reflects the Nature of your Promise and Prophecy!" You must become the same "as the thing you are waiting so patiently for!"This is why process is so painful, drawn out, and full of inward misery. God's Promises and Prophecies are "for a people that God is making!" When God speaks, He is not speaking "to you!" He is speaking "to the person that the Prophetic Word is forming you into!" He is not speaking to the person that everyone has become familiar with. He is speaking to a person "that has yet to be introduced to the world." When God told Jeremiah the plan of his life, he responded by saying, "How can this be so. I am just a child!" God then replied, "Do not say that you are a child. Before you were in your mother's womb I KNEW YOU!" God speaks prohetically to those that "He knows!" You don't have to be known by others to be known by God. *see Jeremiah 1:4-8.It is also imperative for you to understand that when you receive a Life Changing Word "you have just agreed to a death you must experience." With every Word "comes a death!" Prophetic Decrees from the Lord will also "reveal a death to the Lord!" It is impossible to receive a Word from God "and yet maintain the mentalities, opinions, and life practices" that you have become so famous for! (smile). With every Word from the Prophetic Heart of God "comes a sword from God that is designed to cut away years and years of history, relationships, concepts, and perspectives!" You can hear a Word from God and live. But you cannot "do what you hear" UNTIL YOU DIE TO WHO AND WHAT YOU ARE TO YOU AS WELL AS WHAT YOU WERE TO OTHERS!The frustrations you are experiencing as a result of hearing the Word of God "is not coming from the devil," it is coming from God. The pains you are experiencing is not "warfare from the enemy!" It is a "death fare" coming from God. It is a death to the old things you were. A neccessary ingredient that will empower you to live in DOMINION. As soon as you embrace the prophetic promise from God, He will begin to "separate you from your own self, thoughts, ways, and comfortability." He is doing this in order to make you comfortable with Truth in it's purest form!When your nature does not reflect your Promise, you will find yourself "becoming burned out, discouraged, and compromising yourself as it relates to what God desires for you to be and do. Remember, with every Word from God "comes a clause in fine print, committing you to a Nature Change." Many desire Promises without transformation, benefits without discipline, and reward without responsibility. God indeed, has given us the Free Gift of salvation. But in order to experience "the Pre-Ordained Downloads of Power, Authority, and Dominion," we must give away the nature that He never intended for us to possess!" Disobedience "clothed us into coverings of limitation, fear, grief, and religion." But obedience to the Spirit of God "rents away the veils of the fallen nature, just as the death of Jesus rent away the veil in the temple!" When the veils of limitation have been torn away, the Download of the Father's Blessings towards us will become MANIFEST!

A Word!!!

2006-05-21T13:19:00.000-05:00

This is a word that God had given to me on Thursday at our prayer group for our city!!! I just thought I'd share for those who know me and live in the same area as I do!!!

My children,I hear your cries, I hear the cry for your city,know that I am breaking the stronghold of the enemy off,off the youth and off of the churches,know that my Spirit is conquring all that is not of me,know that your prayers are not going unheard,keep warring,keep praying,keep worshiping in warfare as I have told you before,there will be dancing, there will be such a move of my Spirit that many will come and many will be amazed at my love and at my power. Ban together in unity,because the unity of my bride is what is going to make the enemy flee. Do warfare,even in your private time with me ,dance,sing pray in warfare. Don't worry don't fear,for I am doing my will and even the mountains that stand in your way when you speak they shall fall,for its by my Spirit says the Lord.be prepared for the youth of the city will come to me,they will lead many,they will be so on fire for me,don't discourage them,but teach them,nurture them and keep them.

What an awesome God!! YES LORD , I give you praise , do your will in our city, our churches , our homes , our children,& our pastors !!! AMEN!!!!!

MELANCHOLY

2006-05-14T01:29:00.000-05:00

Today being mothers day and all Im feeling a little melancholy , My oldest daughter is getting married in 3 weeks, last night she tried on her wedding dress again to see if she needed any final ajustments made to it, she looked soooo beautful, made me feel soo lucky to have her as a daughter. After she left and the other kids in bed , out of the blue i felt so sad i started crying , now i know shes been out of the house now for a year and a half but this , her getting married is so final, the last snip of the apron string, shes not moving back home , MY BABY is all grown up,shes not a baby anymore .for any of you that has already went throgh this , why is it sooo hard to let go, i wish i could hold her in my lap just one more time, sing her to sleep and rub her face and hair ,i dont want to let her totally go yet , but i have to.oh the joys and pain of being a mother !!! . But im hopeful and and joyful about seeing her be married, to see her being a woman and watching her being a wife and mom, I pray with all my heart that she will have a happy marriage, and her sharing all of it with me ,her momma.

((I LOVE YOU NIKKI, with all of my heart!!!!!!....LOVE YOUR MOMMY!!!))

PLEASE PRAY!!

2006-05-08T08:52:00.000-05:00

Please pray for me , im am realy sick , I have broncitis, i feel like someone hit me with a semi truck. thanks to all who pray!!!

BAD HAIR DAYS!!!!!!

2006-05-04T08:56:00.000-05:00

Have you you ever had just one of ""those days" when no matter what you do it just seems to get worse, I've been having a ""bad hair day"" for a couple of days now , everything I plan on doing gets messed up & changedand it goes in every direction and it wont do what I want it to do!! , I get very frustrated and I want to give up, I just want to crawl back in bed and want to start all over again, but I cant to that , so I turn to God and say ""ok now what ?? ""and He gently says ,"" now Amy work with me here , my ways are not your ways , and my plans are not your plans,"" . So I surrender and ask God for patients and forgiveness for my ugliness. It seems so hard sometimes to let go of control and our plans and give the day to God , you think after 15 years of being a christian I would get that by now !!! But in my fleshly humanness ways I have to be in control, why is being in control so important?? Why is it so hard for me to give God the hair brush and let Him style my day?? .He knows what I need , and what I need to be doing right?? So today I'm going to give God the brush and let design my day fix where I need to be and let him walk me in the right direction , then I know that my ""bad hair day "" will turn into a perfect hair day !!!!!!!!!!!!!

PICTURES!!!!!!

2006-05-02T17:33:00.000-05:00

ME!!! Lookin to Jesus!!
ME Trying to look sad (but i look mad!!??)
My Son lookin like Alfalfa!!!!
My daughters being silly!!!!
My grandson!!!!!!!
My daughter about a year ago!! ( to me she looks like michele Pfiffer!!!)

Watchmen

2006-05-01T09:36:00.000-05:00

This was in an email that was recently sent to me . It convicted me and spoke to me , tell me what you think!!

God has been dealing with me specifically about the calling and responsibilities of the Watchman, but also that of the entire Five-Fold ministry. He has shown me that many of us have neglected the callings on our lives, or don't realize the responsibility they carry.Too many in the Body of Christ are satisfied with having a title, but that's not enough. We must WORK THE OFFICE that has been assigned to us. So many of us are missing it, and condemning ourselves due to sheer disobedience. Yes, we preach Christ. We pray for one another. We fast and attend services regularly, yet HE KNOWS YOU NOT! I keep hearing the Lord say in this hour, "Obedience is better than sacrifice."Specifically to the watchmen, God is yet speaking. He does nothing without first warning His prophets, and so much is taking place in the spirit realm. Are we seeing and hearing from God? If so, are we sharing what we hear with the Body of Christ? If not, are we getting in position to seek Him on behalf of the Body? As watchmen, this is our job. We are to minister unto the BODY OF CHRIST.When attacks, judgments or even blessings come toward the Body of Christ, whether they be from the Father or from the enemy, we SHOULD KNOW what is coming. If we do not, we are out of place. What a great responsibility! Yes, but there is no other choice. If we are called, we are called. Our warfare is truly in prayer and proclamation. DO NOT ALLOW THE ENEMY TO SHUT YOUR MOUTH! Concerning the watchman, the Lord also showed me that many stepped into this position as Isaiah, and God honored it. In essence, some desired the gifts that have allowed them to SEE what is coming. Just as Isaiah did, some proclaimed, "Here am I, send me." Others never volunteered, but were drafted into the job, as Ezekiel was. How we are appointed is not the focus at this point, but how we shall move forward.We must keep one another strengthened and encouraged at this time. It is time for the prophets of God, specifically those set as watchmen, to wake up and take an active role. I see many of us developing prayer lives that require 5-8 hours of consistent prayer. Some of us will begin to lose sleep if we aren't already. Some may need to take some time off work and lock in. If you have keys to your church, go and seek quiet time with the Father. It is imperative. It may just save your position in the Kingdom! "Seek, see, hear, speak," says the Lord. I don't know about all of you, but after all I've been through, all I've sacrificed, I do not want to be condemned for the sins of another simply because I failed to warn.

MORE FUNNIES!!!

2006-04-29T17:07:00.000-05:00

Funnies!!!.........

2006-04-29T01:58:00.000-05:00

I signed up for an exercise class and was told to wear loose-fitting clothing. If I HAD any loose-fitting clothing, I wouldn't have signed up in the first place!

When I was young we used to go "skinny dipping," now I just "chunky dunk."

Don't argue with an idiot; people watching may not be able to tell the difference.

Wouldn't it be nice if whenever we messed up our life we could simply press 'Ctrl Alt Delete' and start all over? AMEN, AMEN !!

Wouldn't you know it...Brain cells come and brain cells go, but FATcells live forever. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Good ,The bad & The ugly!!!!

2006-04-27T13:18:00.000-05:00

Jesus is Good , sin is bad & satan is just plain UGLY!!!

LOLOL , I know ,i have a very dry sence of humor!!, but there is truth to this isnt there!!!!

Where is You Nineveh!!

2006-04-27T08:58:00.000-05:00

I got this in my email, thought Id share it!!!!

Jonah 2:2 In my great trouble I cried to the Lord and he answered me.

Jonah reached toward God in His trouble. There was no doubt in Jonah’s mind as to why he was in distress. He knew he had rebelled. He also was aware of the remarkable mercy of God. He had an attitude problem, which God adjusted for him. He did not feel the people of Nineveh deserved God’s mercy. He knew that his message would cause them to repent and they would indeed experience that remarkable mercy first hand. Amazing though that Jonah also was in need and ultimately a recipient of the same remarkable mercy. Sometimes the problems we face are a direct result of our disobedience. If we will turn our hearts towards God in repentance, we will experience the same remarkable mercy. He will restore us and bring us back to the place where we belong.

WHAT WILL YOU GIVE UP????

2006-04-24T14:43:00.000-05:00

Just a few minutes ago I was getting ready to check my email and God clearly said to me ""What will you give up for me Amy??""I asked Him ""what do you mean"" (God)..""what will you give upfor me , will you give up all that you know and have for me ??"" (my sad answer).. ""it depends on what it is..""( God)Amy there are things in your life you NEED TO GIVE UP in order for me to bless you and to give all that I have promised you, one by one as you give them up you'll see me move and bless you"" .. ... Here I sit utterly saddened by my response , there are things God wants me to give up, things that are hindering me from getting closer to my Lord , I feel weak and not able to , or simply not ready to , WHY?? I love Jesus so much , he gave up something MORE that my piddly things , He gave HIS LIFE FOR ME , why am I so reluctant to give up my small stupid things for Him , I am going to , it may take me awhile but I WILL, The enemy CANT & WILL NOT bind those things to me ... One by one they will GO,............. Father I ask for your strength to help me give up and let go of those things and habits that hinder me from you sever those things from me, YOU are MORE important to me than ANYTHING that I have I LOVE YOU , in Jesus name AMEN!!!!...................... If you have something you know God want you to give up and your answer is like mine , tell me (you don't have to say what it is ) but lets be there for one another and pray and encourage and have each others back , not only do I need this for myself , I want to help someone and be there for them (YOU)!!!! Amen????

Mad dog?? ...Or just smart!!

2006-04-21T09:56:00.000-05:00

Ok some of you are going to think I've totally gone insane but... This morning my DOG locked me out of my house!!!, yes I said my Dog!! LOL , Anyway I went outside to go to my neighbors and I heard my dog jumping at the door , he must have hit the lock with his paw, because I went to open the door , it was locked , so hear I am in my jammies & had to go tell the apt. Manager that I was locked out , when he asked me how I got locked out I said you'll never believe me if I told you, he asked how, I reluctantly told him , he looked at me like I was looney and said your dog locked you out?? im like yes my dog , he's mad at me!!! I was so embarrassed!! ....... Leave it to me , if anything weird happens IM usually the one it happens to !!!! LOLOLOL

UPDATE ON MY MOM

2006-04-20T09:45:00.000-05:00

My Mom is fine , nothing major wrong with her heart , its stress related,(THANK YOU JESUS!!!)& she is haveing knee surgery tommarrow please keep her in your prayers. Also ,if you all remember my 16 year old cousin that died in a car accident in Feb.,today was her birthday , please keep her mother Ruby and her family in your prayers also , for them to be comforted . THANK YOU !!! & GBU ALL!!!

Name your Jericho

2006-04-19T10:35:00.000-05:00

Name your Jericho. Pinpoint the situation
you need to correct but have avoided for so long.
The longer you let it go, the more it fortifies
itself in your soul and becomes an irritant in
your eyes and a thorn in your side.

Jericho was a “gateway” city marking
the beginning of Canaan. It also was called
the “city of palm trees,” which implies that
it had an abundance of water, making it
even more difficult to capture through
“waiting” or siege techniques. It marked
the first miracle Israel would need from
God to possess their promise.

The devil knows that you cannot resolve
your problem with Jericho until you face it.
It is like a fortress now because you have built
it up in your thoughts and imagination.
Outward circumstances and problems make
its walls look overwhelming to you.

So much time has passed that you have
allowed it to become your partner instead of
your enemy. Now you are lying with it rather
than having victory over it. Wait no longer;
it is time to bring those walls down.

March up to that situation and confront your
Jericho. It blocks your way into the promised
land, so it must come down—all the way down.
Once it crumbles, you will experience God’s
presence in your life as never before!

PRAYER REQUEST!!

2006-04-18T17:40:00.000-05:00

Last Friday my mom went to the doctor for some chest pains that she was haveing , they did a stress test and it came back abnormal, she is going to a cardiologist tomarrow, PLEASE PRAY that nothing is wrong , Thanks

HE HAS RISEN!!!!!

2006-04-16T12:58:00.000-05:00

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE!!
As we celebrate Easter with our families lets not forget what today really is about. Its about our Savior , He died on the cross for us , And on this day He arose from the dead , Lets celebrate that now HE IS ALIVE , and sits at the right hand of God!! . WE serve a living Savior , PRAISE HIM for what he has done for us !!!!!

Jesus I PRAISE YOU , for loving me enough to take my place and dieing for me so that I may live, I LOVE YOU!!! AMEN!!!

Gods relationship with us!!!

2006-04-13T13:47:00.000-05:00

Today I woke up in a very blah mood today, i dont know why , its a beautiful sunny day outside !! I think its because i missed church 3 times in a row (and I absolutly loath missing church) anyway I prayed and asked Him to help me get in a better mood , I clearly heard him say ""just praise me child"" . as i did this I felt so much at peace and a little happier, just goes to show you that when we have a close relaionship with Jesus and the Father and begin to praise him , that relationship deepens, and the world doesnt seem so big and lonley or scary!!! AMEN!!!

CHEY UPDATE!!!

2006-04-11T13:02:00.000-05:00

Took her to the ER last night , she was running 102 and threw up , she has a virus, they perscribed antibiotics, shes still running a temp but God will heal her !!

( Special note ___ Thanks Deb ,Chey told me in the car last night"" Shes so nice mommy , i like her!!!"") hope your night went well , GBU .......

Please Pray !!

2006-04-10T15:43:00.000-05:00

If you all would keep my daughter Cheyenne in you prayers , She has been running a temperater of 101 since last night and her cough is really deep, if she doesnt get better by later tonight im taking her in to ER. Thanks !!!

PALM SUNDAY!!!!

2006-04-08T22:00:00.000-05:00

The origin of Palm Sunday is documented in The Gospel of Matthew 21:8-9. On the Sunday before His crucifixion, the scripture reads "And a very great multitude spread their garments in the way; others cut down branches from the trees, and strawed them in the way. And the multitudes that went before, and that followed, cried, saying, Hosanna to the Son of David: Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord; Hosanna in the highest."
Any left over palms from the Palm processions are burned and the ashes used in the subsequent year's Ash Wednesday. In countries without palm trees, branches of different trees are often used. Palm Sunday marks the beginning of Holy Week too. There are events occurring throughout the week culminating with Good Friday and Easter Sunday.

Yes JESUS , I cry HOSANNA. As we enter the holy week lets commit to seek Jesus as never before , Lets remember what he did for us, lets praise Him for loving us enough to die for us . Jesus gave His life so that ours could be spared , OH WHAT LOVE!!! ...........

You Know Your a Mom When.........

2006-04-06T10:14:00.002-05:00

The ones in blue are the ones I relate to !!! LOL

You Know You're a Mom When:
1. Your feet stick to the kitchen floor.....and you don't care.
2. When the kids are fighting, you threaten to lock them in a room together and not let them out until someone's bleeding.
3. You can't find your cordless phone, so you ask a friend to call you, and you run around the house madly, following the sound until you locate the phone downstairs in the laundry basket.
4. You spend an entire week wearing sweats.
5. Your idea of a good day is making it through without a child leaking bodily fluids on you.
6. Popsicle become a food staple.
7. Your favorite television show is a cartoon.
8. Peanut butter and jelly is eaten at least in one meal a day.

9. Your baby's pacifier falls on the floor and you give it back to her after you suck the dirt off of it because your too busy to wash it off.
10. Your kids make jokes about farting, burping, pooping, etc., and you think it's funny.
11. You're so desperate for adult conversation that you spill your guts to the telemarketer that calls and HE hangs up on YOU!
12. Spit is your number one cleaning agent.
13. You're up each night until 10 PM vacuuming, dusting, wiping, washing, drying, loading, unloading, shopping, cooking, driving, flushing, ironing, sweeping, picking up, changing sheets, changing diapers, bathing, helping with homework, paying bills, budgeting, clipping coupons, folding clothes, putting to bed, dragging out of bed, brushing, chasing, buckling, feeding (them, Not you), PLUS swinging, playing baseball, bike riding, pushing trucks, cuddling dolls, rollerblading, basketball, football, catch, bubbles, sprinklers, slides, nature walks, coloring, crafts, jumping rope, PLUS raking, trimming, planting, edging, mowing, gardening, painting, and walking the dog. You get up at 5:30 AM and you have no time to eat, sleep, drink or go to the bathroom, and yet ... you still managed to gain 10 pounds.
14. In your bathroom there is toothpaste on the light fixtures, water all over the floor, a dog drinking out of the toilet and body hair forming a union to protest unsafe working conditions.
15. You buy cereal with marshmallows in it.
16. The closest you get to gourmet cooking is making rice krispie bars.

Bless the Lord!!

2006-04-05T15:13:00.000-05:00

Bless The Lord oh My soul,and ALL that is within me BLESS HIS HOLY NAME!!!--Psalm 103:1

That is what I want to do , i want ALL that is within me to praise and bless HIM, I love HIM sooo much, even though I fail him , He NEVER fails me , I want to SHOUT to the world , LOOK WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE, SEE HOW AWESOME & AMAZING HE IS !!!! Yes Lord I will bless you with all that I am!!!

Being real here!!!

2006-04-04T08:36:00.000-05:00

I need advice , As you all know I'm a single parent , my second oldest daughter is 10 & she is being really difficult, and rebellious, She hits her younger brother and sister and calls them names & she's doing VERY poorly in school. I have done EVERYTHING to discipline her and I've talked to her about this and have asked her if there was something deep down that is bothering her she says no and that she doesn't know why she acts this way . I have prayed so hard about this , for God to give me wisdom and to help me to be the kind of parent she needs , and for her to change also, I'm just at the end of my rope , I feel hopeless & like a bad mom.Also Her teachers at school says she's not being cooperative in classes and not paying attention, they are testing her for ADHD , (which I pray she doesn't have) anyone got ANY advice ??

APRIL FOOLS!!!!

2006-04-01T18:23:00.000-06:00

WELL , I at least got one person!!! I guess no one eles fell for it ,your the winner Sylvia!!!! You get a free huggers!!!

SO SO SAD!!!

2006-04-01T11:10:00.000-06:00

Im really sad , I have to make a deciesion that is really hard for me ,one of my family members that lives in Colorado offerd to have me move in a house that they own ,Id be living in a really big , and nice house close to the moutains, the rent would be the same as im paying now until i could get a job, so I might move, im so torn!!

A Prophetic Word

2006-03-31T11:11:00.000-06:00

This is a word that God had given me for our church on 3-13-06, But I think we ALL apply it to ourselves!!!

My children,I am calling you into A deeper place with me, I want you to let go of all fear and doubt. I am leading you into a place of deeper revelation of me and of my presence & of worship, let me permeate you with all that I have for you. No longer will I allowthe enemy to hold you back, no longer will I let the enemy take from you.This is a new day , a new time, for a new thing.Let me take you into the Holy of Holys, Let me thrust you into my presence, as you let yourself go into a deeper kind of worship, as you go into this place, you are pushing back the forces of darknessoff of your church,off of your families,off of your lives. Go to that secret place , the place where you spend time with me, a place where you seek only me and the things of me. I will show you great and mighty things, I will show you great and mighty things on your behalf. Do not hesitate any longer ,now is the time NOW.Let yourselves be enveloped by my Spirit, don't hold yourselves back any longer. This is the time for intense spiritual warfare, do this my children,enter into warfare for your church, for your family, for your city,for your state , & for your nation. The time is crucial,the time for intense spiritual warfareis NOW,pray and worship to push through the darkness, to break the enemy's hold. Don't fear. Do it. I am with you, we will fight together we will win,Yes we will win. The power of darknessWILL NOT prevail against those who are for me and with me......

I Feel The Rain !!!

2006-03-30T10:11:00.000-06:00

I feel the rain, I feel the rain, i feel it pouring down on me!!

This song is deep within my spirit today. I can literaly feel his rain pouring over me right now , This morning i woke up in a very foul mood (i dont like mornings) but this was an unusauly bad morning for my emotions, but i asked God to forgive my ""ugly attitude "" and help me , as i read my freind Deborha's blog that feeling drifted away and i felt a stirring within me and this song going on in my mind, OH How i want HIS rain to just pour over me!! i need to get soaked with his Spirit and be enveloped with his preasance!!! There is NO god like our God!!! . Its my prayer that ALL Gods people Get stirred and Get soaked by His Gloriouse rain!!!

(ADDED) ROTFLOL, as i took the dog outside IT WAS RAINING !!! GOD IS SO AWESOME!!!!

Gods Strength

2006-03-29T14:58:00.000-06:00

In this past month I've developed such a hunger and thirst for more of Jesus in my life , To seek so much after his voice and direction. I want Him to guide me more and to help me to be all that He wants me to be. I want so much to hear his voice ,to fine tune my hearing so that all I hear is His voice and not be mislead. Its my desire to do what he has called me to do ,to speak what he wants to speak and to go where he wants me to go. Today I reflected on the last 3 years,So much has changed for me , most of it was so hard to get through ,from being married and having it suddenly ripped apart ,to my oldest daughter moving out at 16 (but our relationship is closer that its ever been now!!) to being a single mom (very hard)but by Gods strength we made it through. But you know although those things seemed liked a bomb hit me and shattered my life apart I grew stronger ,learned more, and sought after God more.I thank God for the past ,it made me who I am now .But now I look to The future, and all that God has for me , I want so much to grow closer to my savior, He is my life, I LOVE HIM!!!

The Glory Cloud

2006-03-28T14:09:00.000-06:00

This is from a egroup im in . It spoke volumes to me!!!

Then the cloud covered the Tent of Meeting, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle. 35 Moses could not enter the Tent of Meeting because the cloud had settled upon it, and the glory of the LORD filled the tabernacle.
36 In all the travels of the Israelites, whenever the cloud lifted from above the tabernacle, they would set out; 37 but if the cloud did not lift, they did not set outâ€”until the day it lifted. 38 So the cloud of the LORD was over the tabernacle by day, and fire was in the cloud by night, in the sight of all the house of Israel during all their travels.

Kingdom people realize that they are now the Tent of Meeting! The vessel that holds the Spirit of the Lord. Notice that the above says that the cloud, the Shekinah, the Glory of God covered the Tent of Meeting and filled the tabernacle!

There are times when the Lord sets us aside and broods over us. In certain seasons we are appointed to come aside and bask in His Glory. By it being upon us it then has to fill us. It's like the word! You have to read it or hear it ( outside stimuli) first before it can get inside of you! The more you stay under, the more increase of His Spirit and Glory there will be poured out into you.

But what is the Glory of God? It's His goodness!

When the Glory comes there is His Presence. Everything that God is there and available Revelation is there. Direction is there. Peace is there. Liberty is there. Protection, strength and instruction for your next work for the Lord. Spiritual fruit ( nature of Christ) is cultivated so we can be used in the next season of life. Intercession is made there among other things.

Notice that the Israelites didn't go anywhere until the cloud lifted. The Cloud ( the Lord Spirit) is His goodness. As Christians we must be able to step out of the Solomon temple mentality and lifestyle we have been accustomed too. That Temple was unmovable. Noted for its beauty and stature but the kind of dwelling the Lord seeks is far beyond that. This we can equate to the big church buildings/ cathedrals we see on every corner in almost every city. He wants vessels that are movable by His Spirit! Those who recognize when the cloud is hovering over them and that they will sit down and allow God to pour our His Glory so that when He lifts, that they will set out and manifest that Glory!

What has happened is that church folk have not been able to manifest is because they first done know how to embrace His presence and those who have recieved have gotten obese on the word ( hearers not doers) have not set out! The Cloud has long lifted and because they missed opportunities to set out and manifest, they are now awaiting another move of the Spirit. Anothering brooding of the Spirit.

The Lord led the people of Israel with a cloud by day and fire in the cloud by night! There was no reason for them not to follow after God. He made provision for them. See thats the word right there! Provision! What is that really: Prophetic Vision. God in His infinite wisdom knew beforehand that if the people didnt see some clue that God was leading that they wouldnt know what to do so. Even in this they still had to have faith because they were not given any a.b.c. directions on where they would be the next time the cloud settle on the tent!

We have to be ready to receive from the Lord wherever we are. We have to be able to go in faith knowing wherever we are the Lord knows where to find us.

The church up until now hasnt been able to recognize the provision. It's prophetic remember! If their natural and spiritual eyes are darkened they can't go in faith to even partake of the provision. Believing that God will lead us is almost always heard of but when its time to manifest that profession too many stumble. And we can tell this is the truth because whenever we personally or group of people do not follow after God, when He has left and is calling us to a higher place and they we go, Habakkuk 3 says that the earthquakes. There will be sign of trouble, strife etc. Why? Because when He doesn't feel us walking steadily after Him He then has to stop and turn around to see where we are! Not a good thing!

But bless the Lord! He is merciful and longsuffering! The prophetic is being released with a right now word for local churches, cities, states, countries in ever arena you can think of. People will begin to see the provision that has already been set in place and begin to set out in faith, manifesting the Glory of God and obtaining the benefits given by the blood and resurrection of the Lamb! We as the Body will again revere each other as the Ark and not the buildings we worship in and denominations so many worship! Saints will be taught true worship and holiness by demonstration and how to embrace God's presence.

What used to be acceptable and even required of God may not be enough anymore in some seasons. The only way to know is the make sure that your eyes are dead set on Him.

Clarity go forth now in the Name of Jesus! Faith be increased right now in the Name of Jesus! For we shall take the Kingdom.... it time for new level Kingdom living!

Hes ok

2006-03-27T15:56:00.000-06:00

My Dad made it through the surgery fine , Wednesday He has to get a cathader put in his leg to increase the blood flow. Thanks to all who prayed for him , please continue to pray .

Please Pray!!

2006-03-27T08:20:00.000-06:00

Please Pray for my Dad , He is having surgery this morning to remove some more of his leg . pray they find where this infection is also . Thanks.

Hold me Daddy--A poem I wrote

2006-03-25T11:27:00.000-06:00

This is a poem I wrote , This is a prayer that I sometime say to God , and also what I want to do when I see God face to face , I want so much to climb up on his lap so he can cuddle me .

Hold me Daddy when the world seems so big
and I feel so alone,
Hold me Daddy when I am scared of what the
may future may hold,
Hold me Daddy when I'm tired , and I need
somewhere to lay my weary head,
Hold me Daddy when I shaking and crying
and I need someone to comfort me,
Hold me Daddy when no one else seems to
be around and I need someone to talk to,
Hold me Daddy because in your arms I feel safe and loved
Hold me Daddy and never let me go , I need your strong arms to
lift me when I fall,
I know your holding me now with arms unseen,
but how I long for the day
when I see you face to face, and climb up on your lap
so i can feel the warmth of your chest and the Love so real.
Hold me Daddy , Hold your little girl.

THANK HIM

2006-03-24T15:36:00.000-06:00

FATHER GOD, I want to thank You for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards, I am thanking you right now
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better, I am thanking you right now
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves, I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet, I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I get the job, I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief, I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed. I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive.
I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties.
I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles. I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do moreand do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, you haven't given up on me. God is just so good, and he's good ALL the time.

New Addition!!!

2006-03-24T08:45:00.000-06:00

This is the new addition to the Mathews family!!! His name is Harley , He was my moms dog but she couldnt take care of him , becaues of my dad being in the hospital and she is going to be in the hospital for knee surgery in April so we took him !!!

A Blonde moment.......Wait I'm brunette!!!

2006-03-22T22:56:00.000-06:00

Have you ever had one of those days when your brain decides temporarily exit your head!!!??? Tonight before church I had my mom stop at hyvee gas station /convenience store to get a pack of gum , my mom told me to get out and shell pull up and park , so I went in got my gum, came out looked for a red van , opened the door of the red van , looked down cus the seat looked somewhat off and said where's my purse and bible (thinking my mom pulled a joke and hid them from me like my mom so often does ) looked up and this lady looked at me like I was a total looney person and said umm excuse me...... I looked at her and said sorry , I looked over a few spots and my mom and kids were dying laughing I felt so stupid( duuuhhhh !!!!)I don't think I've ever been that embarrassed I felt 3 inches tall (Iknow what your thinking those who know me DON'T GO THERE!!!!!!!LOLOLOL) anyway IM thinking of dying my hair blonde again ...to match my brain!!!

PSALM 95-- A call to Worship and Obedience

2006-03-21T08:37:00.000-06:00

Oh , Let us sing to the Lord!!
Let us SHOUT JOYFULLY to the rock
of our salvation. Let us come before HIS
presence with thanksgiving;Let us SHOUT
JOYFULLY to him with psalms, For the Lord
is a GREAT GOD, And the Great King above all gods!!!!!!!(Psalm95: 1-3)

These verses tell us to SHOUT TO THE LORD, SING TO HIM , PRAISE HIM. We are to do this out of obedience to HIS word!! not to do this is not only disobedient ,its rebelliousness to him. For the past 2 weeks that what our church has been focused on , that and a deeper relationship with our savior & God!!, This is sooo vital in this time ,God is calling all that belive in him and that are called his children to a deeper more intimate relationship with him, He wants us to spend time with Him in the secret place , to seek his face and to focus on hearing his voice . He wants us to read his word EVERYDAY and pray , not just pray but PRAY!! WARFARE PRAYERS , because when we pray warfare prayers and praise and worship him we are breaking the powers of darkness , we are pushing back the enemy , we are piercing the darkness with the light of Gods presence, And were Gods presence is, darkness has to GO AWAY!!!Amen!!??
At 4 :30 this morning I woke up ,just lying there for about 5 min. Then tried to go back to sleep when God told me to get up and start praising him, I'm like, now?? but over and over again this ran though my mind . I got up & started praising him( sacrificing my warm pillow and blankie!!And much needed beautysleep!!) when I did this I couldn't stop(or didn't want to stop!!) this is what God wants us to do , that's is the kind of commitment to him he wants and is seeking for from us, and I don't know about you but that exactly what I want , and that exactly what I'm going to do !!! I PRAISE YOU GOD , YOU ARE JEHOVAH JIRAH, JEHOVAH NISSI, JEHOVAH RAPHA, JEHOVAH ADONAI, JEHOVAHEL ELYON,JEHOVAH SHALOM, & JEHOVAH SABAOTH!!!! AND I PRAISE YOUR HOLY NAME, I PRAISE YOU JESUS ,YOU ARE MY SAVIOR , MY DELIVERER, MY KING , LORD , LION OF JUDA!!!! I GIVE YOU ALL MY PRAISE!!!!

GOD ENCOUNTERS!!!!!

2006-03-13T01:50:00.000-06:00

Yesterday at our church we had 2 AWESOME services the Holy Spirit moved and swept through and touched all of us ,people were dancing ,shouting ,praiseing , . It was truly amazing , GOD IS WANTING US TO ENCOUNTER HIM , and seek his face as never before!!! ..................... Then At 12:30 am , I was in the bathroom standing at the sink and God spoke to me and told me to pray he needs me to listen to him and pray, well little did I know what he was up to, as i started to pray and sing , He blew my mind, the most amazing presence of God came over me , He spoke to me and loved on me , and as I praised him more an intense feeling of warfare came over me , I started praying for my home , children ,church,& city, and even for our nation. I'm no stanger to doing warfare but this was so intense . People God is speaking , Can You hear him?? , he'll speak to you , he'll move you , he'll shake you to the very core of your being , God wants you to hear him , he wants you to spend time with him in that secret place , He want you to know him intimately, Go to him ,talk to him PRAISE HIM , are you willing to ??I am , after all its NOT ABOUT ME and how I feel , what I want , ITS ABOUT HIM,. I was so wrapped up in self pity , (read my post below) boohooing about how I've failed, yes I did fail , but I failed to put God above everything including my feelings , Its not about how I feel, its about WHO I KNOW , THAT'S JESUS. I don't care if I have one friend on this earth just as long as I have HIM. IT ALL ABOUT HIM , not about us , I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Don't you ?? . If you want a God encounter PRAISE HIM WITH YOUR WHOLE HEART and watch what happens you'll be amazed!!!!!!!!!!!

Gods faithfulness

2006-03-10T01:39:00.000-06:00

Praise God for His faithfulness, For about 2 weeks I had hada deep depression over me, all I did was sleep and eat and cry, My heart was aching deep within me, I prayed ...A lot telling God how I felt. I was feeling That I failed him , my children myself because I had no job so I couldn't provide for my children like I should , no car so I could get a job, no husband to love and to love me back , the feeling of failure to God because of a couple of repeated sins I kept falling into & not praying ,reading my word and spending time with him, I felt like a big loser , and that how could the Lord use me I'm not worthy enough for him to use , at one point I even thought about ending my life but I couldn't because of my children . I even said to God you probably don't have one person praying for me without me asking that person for prayer ( real smart huh??). But I had ask a couple of people to pray me out of this , and I went to Libby ,my pastors wife and she made me look in a different view of things(thank you Libby, luv ya!!) , but after I went home a little while later I was still moping around depressed . Yesterday I read my pastors blog , I was about praising & worshiping God, (I recommend reading it just go to the link on the left that says pastor Darrell) in a part of his post he challenged the reader to stop reading and just start to praise God , I did and a couple of minutes later I felt an incredible peace come over me , then I started shaking and crying. The rest of the day was so peaceful , as off and on I praised him and thanked him , now the enemy tried to sneak that depression back on like the sneak that he is ,BUT I said NO, I will not go there , I KNOW who I AM IN JESUS , God is a God of peace and he gives me a sound mind. If anything , I want whoever reads this , depressed or not , if you feel tired ,lonely , depressed , not good enough , a failure, a loser , STOP and just lift your hand and say I praise you Jesus , say it over and over and soon you'll be shouting it because His peace & his presence will surround you and you wont be able to contain yourself!!! COME ON DO IT NOW GIVE HIM PRAISE!!!! YES LORD I GIVE YOU ALL MY PRAISE!!!!

A Movie Made me think!!!

2006-03-07T01:25:00.000-06:00

I bought and watched this movie last night , It is based on the Book By Frank Peretti, Here is a brief description......"""The true face of terror is revealed in this supernatural thriller based on Frank Peretti's best-selling novel. Miracles are happening in the sleepy town of Antioch, and everyone is talking about the mysterious drifter with the incredible powers. But who is this charismatic stranger -- the true Messiah, a false prophet or something far more sinister? The townspeople are soon divided, and when happenings at the stranger's revival tent take on a bizarre and frightening twist, it's up to an ex-minister to confront his own inner demons and unlock the shocking secret of THE VISITATION. """.............. This is an Awesome movie , As I watched it it made me Think about what it says in the Bible that even some of the very elect(Christians ,) would be decieved. That is why we need to know Gods word and what it says (&teach our children and loved ones this also)about Jesus the end times and all, And that we need to keep our spiritual eyes and discernment in tune to God and know what the Bible says about This. I know that I don't red the word everyday but I definitely am now , and that we also need to have that intimant , personal relationship with Jesus so God will give us that knowledge or discernment when we are being deceived. In the movie it also shows demonic manifestations in people and in the atmosphere around , Inow I have a fear of this , but I also learned that I need to get rid of that fear (especially in the calling God has on my life) and that by the power of God no evil can harm me,I know Ill face this I've already experienced a little of this (not possession )but maifestations of demonic presence's, black figures, and on people to make them rageful. it scared me to death , but a righteous indignation came on me and I told them to leave in Jesus name. Scary , ya!! but God is with me and he's my protector. Well I've rambled and gotten somewhat off subject but that's me!!! LOL , anyway , SEE the movie . It'll make you think !!!!

THIS IS THE DAY!!!!!

2006-02-27T08:50:00.000-06:00

GOOD MORNING!!!

This is the day that the Lord has made let Us REJOICE and be Glad in it!!!
Ya know no matter what you facing this morning , God is there to lift you above your circumstance . He Loves you SOOOOOOOOO much , He wants to replace sadness with JOY , and weakness with STRENGTH, anger with LOVE. Let him renew you mind and put the fruit of the spirit within you . You are special to him , he made you unique and beautiful, YOU ARE HIS CHILD AND HE LOVES YOU . He is ALWAYS there when no one seems to be around , You can ALWAYS talk to him and he ALWAYS listens he is never to busy . I just wanted to remind you all of this (and myself) BECAUSE HE IS LOYAL to you !!! HE LOVES US . LETS SHOUT FOR JOY TO OUR LORD AND SAVIOR!!!! PRAISE HIM PEOPLE GIVE OUR JESUS THE PRAISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!